Today was supposed to be a significant day but things change. Today will be a significant day for other reasons hopefully cos I've got my driving assessment test. Hopefully I'm deemed worthy of the dangerous roads in Dubai! Kwangs... But gauging by yesterday's lesson I'm totally screwed.

I've been on an emotional rollercoater these past few days that makes me think if all this is worth the trouble? We're both not gonna win no matter how much we've talked about things. I guess we've both come to a point where drastic changes has to be made and we are both unwilling to take the leap. Lately, I've changed from positive to neutral to total negativity. I used to be filled with so much hope and now there isn't much to hope for is there? I guess the only thing motivation that has kept me going is my family. They are the reason why I'm here and things hasn't changed so much but at least I'm not feeling worthless anymore. My family is able to breathe and settle things that they weren't able to in the past.

This is the promise I made for myself when I started this journey 2 years ago. Promises that I hope I will keep. One of the promises was just too hard, it slipped along the way.

So here's wishing you be happy and may you find yourself and find the one who's gonna be there for you both physically and emotionally. Thanks for the almost 2 1/2 years.