4 days DOK!

Mak ai... betapa senang hati beta... Akan ku pulang ke Singapura yg penuh meriah dgn 2nd week raya festivities... Walaupun org cakap dah basi... Aku tak kisah! Happy dol! Dapat balik... dapat tgk mama papa... dapat tgk buncit ngan kudut... dapat tgk Nek nah... Dapat tgk Nek Dah... Dapat tgk Adib Bushuk.... eh brapa byk org dah nak tgk! First raya in Dubai... Technically not in Dubai lah... Pasal si anak di rantauan ni berada di Johannesburg pada Hari Raya... Nasib kerja beb... Kalau tak... Habis lah gua peh tissue kat rumah!!! Tapi malam raya gereks... Org singapura yang senasib semua pergi ke Al Garhoud where we ate rendang, sambal udang, kari ayam... walaupun byk campur air atau instant, tetap riang suasana raya di Dubai. As for the suasana of the locals... MENDAK SEH! Haiz... too many ex pats... But what to do... dah nasib... Then like tradition in SG, kita tgk Bujang lapok... not one... BUT 2! haha.... Giler... Well we made the best of it... What can we do rite? I mean it was a sad day for all of us... But we had a deep sense that we were not going thru it alone. Misery loves company but not to sound so cruel lah. I mean, eventually balik per... Cuma kena byk sabar ah. Alhamdulilah after all the disappointments I've encountered with Emirates, they haf given me the best thing... Off days to make my leave longer and amazing flts after the leave. Haiz... Alhamdulilah... Evrytime when i feel down they pick me up. Thanks lah eh! My baby bro, Imran couldn't celebrate raya also cos he had teruk rashes and he had to stay home. Ended up raya as a trio... haha... Mama, Papa and Irfan... Kwang3 this raya gets weirder and weirder... Me in Joburg pun try to hooray hooray ah... supposed to eat steak pasal it's the best. Wah... then Halal lagi... lagi lah happy! One sirloin steak... medium well... mmmm... wah.. then nxt day... hooray hooray makan king klip... wah... mmm... haha... betul nyer satisfy myself lah eh... ingat duit allowance pun habis (pasal conversion Joburg money is lesser spend lor!) abis ader balance lah! then nak buat aper... simpan lah eh! I'm only left with Delhi and Manchester and I'm home baby!! Bismillah... please pray that i get a flight back home... I want to balik cepat! I've been a really good girl... Please... I won't ask for anything else... I promise... Amin...

You win some, you lose some

People say.. wah... so good ah become stewardess get to fly here and there... most of all gaji bomb siak! Haiz... all these are true and thank Allah so much for all the blessings he has bestowed upon me in all the interviews and the tests that makes me the stewardess now. Alhamdulilah... The sad parts are now ah... Raya is jus around the corner. I keep telling myself I'll be fine but the truth is, nope... not fine at all... I was listening to seloka hari raya where the lyrics go like "indahnya sungguh di pagi raya"... Then before i knew it I was crying... ON THE WAY TO WORK! haha... so Lame lah... First time being away from home during raya and i won't be back till the 2nd week... Noreen says at least you get to go back... Ya i know... Tapi masih sayu ah beb... It's like u've been doing the same thing for 20 years and here in this foreign land who don't even haf a taste of our culture... I'll be spending this very special day in Johannesberg... Last year, masih dapat duit collection, challenge with Irfan and Imran! Haha... Or malam raya watching P Ramlee shows for the Upteenth (dunno how to spell lor... English not good) time and still laughing at the same stupid jokes... The SMS-es you get malam raya... Thee look i give to my bros when they haf to go for raya prayers... Kwangs! I will be missing all these!!!! Sabar.... Ni semua growing up! Kepada kawan2 ku yang going to celebrate this raya differently, be it you're in training or in Dubai with me or lost a loved one... Just want to say you're not alone... I feel your pain... Raya this year will just not be the same... Advanced Selamat Hari Raya and Maaf Zahir dan Batin!

Ladeeda

This is a blog entry about nothing just thoughts that come to my mind within these 5 mins.

1) Called Helzie today: Dunno why I thought of this first but I did. Oh well, I missed him and his nonsense. You know the first time I met him, i heard so much about how naughty he is lah... sarcastic lah... And guess what the impression doesn't change. Haiz... Helzie Helzie...

2) I miss my syg: There are days when it just comes and goes... But it hits bad when during the weekends cos I usually spend my weekends with him... be it with his frens or mine... but we spend time together... Haiz... If only things were different... Oh well... Time will tell and insyaallah it will get better for the both of us. MMMWAH!

3) Been spying on my old secondary school mates: This was fun and all becos of frenster. When one of my batch mates added me as a fren. Niwae, my batch mate just got married and is now pregnant! How wonderful... Then wonder wonder... clicked on this senior of mine who will not even remember me but i remember her... Cos her ex bf at that time is so cute... Haha... But oh well bygones... Niwae, she is now happily married expecting a second baby... Best kan? I mean so many pple you meet in a way just really nice to know what they're doing and stuff even thought they will never remember you. Call me KPO but it's nice...

Ok... 5 mins over... kwangz! (actually exceeded but what the heck!)

Bad days

I remember one day in Poly I had a horrible day. It was so bad I broke down and cried to Mummy. Like everything you planned goes to the ground and time keeps ticking till the you meet the "death time". It's like a quicksand sucking you to god knows where. But I made through that day when i didn't think i could at that time. And there are some times when u just want to get it over and done with. Breathe again like you've been drowning and you need to reach the surface. Well all I can say to myself is that I've seen nothing yet. I mean there are so many of my friends that have been thorugh so much this year and all I can say or do is that I'm praying for you guys. I know things will never be the same again and living now just takes a whole new toll. But you will make it. Losing something that means so much to you is like being literally wiped off your feet and down to the ground. I'll support you guys no matter what. No matter how far you are. I may not give the best advice or say the right things but I mean well... haha... dalam baik blowing my own trumpet. Happy Ramadhan... and Ramadhan Kareem... Have no idea wat that means but that's what evryone says here. Kwangz....