Have you ever been betrayed? Used? Loved your all only to get burnt in the end? It's like the brandy song... But what the hell... do relationships have to end in awkwardness and anger? Friendships are difficult... Don't you find it funny at one point of time you jus can't get enough of that person and can't stop talking to him/her and now u're thinking what the hell you wanna talk abt? haha... funny.... I'm young i'm free... But things you do in your past may affect what you do in the future. And to whom it may concern, i'm sorry if things like this may affect our relationship. I'm learning. Amin once said dat a woman gives her all in a relationship. damn it! it's nature... but hey kita hanye merancang... tuhan yang menentukan... so religion is one of the main factors that keep me sane... thanks Allah... Then it leads me to my next thought, how about pple without religion... kesian eh diorang? I'm just really thankful... Am i too friendly? Am i too much of a pushover? Haiz... if i get an answer would i like it? Are pple (if anyone reads) having a headache reading my blog... why am i so serious? hehe... on a lighter note, my aunt gave me $10!!! siaper nak gula gula hacks! haha... oh yah! and i broke a wine glass today! yay! Lame seh sheereen... nights!

1:40 AM; i'm flying away now Y

Hey peeps... what abt my blog now... thanks to my best fren Izad.. lotsa love! hehe.. thanks so much.. please comment abt the blog... Especially Izad... But i sure wished i had the starry thingees! so cute... Niwae, gonna call my sayang! doo be doo be doo....

1:11 AM; i'm flying away now Y

been so busy with school and work... when i'm not working I'm having drama and vice versa.. why am i torturing myself like this? I have no idea... for the money? I guess... but it isn't that much. Talking about money, i'm kinda wondering if i'll ever get the money for the school program my sayang, helzie and azlina did. Although the money has yet to come, the experience was priceless... but I still want the money :P haha... It's so much fun when you see the kids faces and excited looks when you look for volunteers. Then primary school kids are the cutest... Especially the lower primary... everything they see they like and would definitely volunteer. I think some of you might be blur about what i'm talking about. Clarify: 4 of us volunteered to help Teater Titisan to do a racial harmony show in schools... we went to 4 schools in total... 3 pri and 1 secondary. It's lotsa fun! pergi balik naik lorry...hehe.... (i know fana and siddiq would probably be going, "Kau... budak teater siak!"... "ok aper!") I better get back to my projects that have been neglected.. submission in 10 days!!! yikes... so sickly exciting!

3:22 AM; i'm flying away now Y

hello.... I tend to belate evrytime i go to school... today's no different... haiz... although i do have a test so I will make it snappy... My dear frens Fid and bulat have gone to serve the nation. This is my first time having close frens go to NS... the feeling... kinda sad... But hey, it's not as though we won't meet again rite? I jus wish that the both of them take really good care of themselves... Jgn naughty naughty... Later when my baby go in... later when Hanif and Izad masuk... wah... Nangis ah aku! Keseorangan... takper ah... overdose kerja kat fish and co... EEE... lame nyer kerja kat saner after graduation... But nonetheless a source of income while waiting for a real job... Might go for something that will make people terperanjat I can get in... something that is truly not my nature... then the world will see what sheereen is capable of!!! ahahaha... WATEVER.... So anyway, I gave my all for the taklimat camp... Thanks to Sobah and Mamat for pulling through to help me with the obstacle course... if not i think I wouldn't have the energy... But mostly i would like to thank zaky, wan, ali, azhari, lina, bulat and siddiq! You guys were really great in the help out! Great bunch of pple to work with... to the food com (sap and yati) and the organising com (byk sgt) it was a great camp! Still room for Improvement, but i think we did an excellent job... apologise for any wrongdoings or unhappiness that might have gone down during the camp... For my titisan mates, WE ROCKED!!! Air oren ah, paling gerek nyer performance... my one or two lines pun org ketawa.... tak sangka seh... kat trg takde org comment... pat performance peh gerek! It was like the energy kept flowing an flowing... GEREK!!! We shall achieve glory once again! :P But if it wasn't for the wonderful audience, it would not have been as fun... Too many things to update.. too little time for Brand management quiz! ahahahaa!!! wish me luck dudes! Happy belated birthday to FANA AND NIF! love ya!

10:13 AM; i'm flying away now Y

tomoro's the big day! MAG taklimat... Persada MAG... I'm excited.... i hope my games are ok... all copied from GL camp 2002/2003! :P whatever.... it gave me inspiration... not all ah. Anyway anyway.. big day.. meet new pple make more frens... woo hoo! One thing when you meetnew friends, first imoressions are cast. In mktg, u learn that first impressions last. So make a good one... But there always wrong impressions if u're blessed for that second chance. Some when i asked said dat i was an arrogant bitch. Some say that I'm friendly (actually most ah :). But one i heard for the first time... garang... this was by my senior, anwar... hmmm... am i garang? kasar maybe... but garang? hehe... i find it interesting to ask for first impressions.

I'm worried.. my freshies are running away.. where are Aini and Ria? What happened to you guys? I hate it when pple jus leave without rhyme or reasons... i mean we respected you the least you could do is respect us.... It's sad and very discouraging... Hope you guys come back anyway...

12:54 AM; i'm flying away now Y

Feeling for today ANGRY... A million things you try to do... but do u achieve wat you're supposed to do? A million things you say... but do u actually do it? A million and 1 excuses... but are they really valid? Am i capable of doing wat i am supposed to do... tasked to do... elected to do... AM I? Who are am i? I'm only human... Human with weaknesses... PLENTY of weakness...

i have a weakness: if i concentrate on sumthing so hard... all others cease to exist...
I have a weakness: If i feel so passionate about something... I'll jus breakdown and cry
I have a weakness: If anyone says something that I'm not pleased abt... I would jus ignore it and let myself get hurt
I have a weakness: I have lotsa weaknesses................

I wanna be strong. I wanna be careless. I wanna be happy. I wanna be free. I wanna be smart.

Yah rite... kita hanya merancang... tuhan yang menentukan...

I've been doing lots of thinkin lately. Something I haven't been doing...

2:55 PM; i'm flying away now Y

halo! Today was a really fun day at drama... story merepek but it was really fun... hopefully other MAG peeps will understand it and like it ah. hehe...

"macam maner kau tahu bapak Jealous?"
"You ni bnyk songeh ah..." "Aper? Banyak Songeh?" "Tak basikal I senget!"

ahahaha.... funny shit! love it to the max... agaknyer mcm shiok sendiri ah... :P But as long as we haf fun... i'll love it! :P

Disappointed cos not many people came... bummer... but nontheless managed to bring out something out of it.... My program peh org semua tak jumpa2... macam mana si? Sobah sobah wherefore art thou thy sobah? Gila cari sobah kat sini? Suka ah... aku nye blog ape...

Otey spend time with my sayang today... Trust i think is something I should strenghthen in my relationship... Trust me... I'm a reliable person, most of the time :P... ya i can get cheeky and oogle at cute guys... love you nonetheless! mmmmwah!

nite nite honey bunnies!

11:41 PM; i'm flying away now Y

2 papers down! 1 more to go... to evryone else who has no more papers... just you wait! otey... My sayang and i went to eat at KFC yesterday. Saw this guy like talking to himself. Kinda freaky. He was this wak pakai batik shirt and songkok and evrything. Farhan said that it was like he sumpah the place or something. Haiz.. that was freaky. Niwae, had great fun with my baby. Although it was short. but fun. Sorry sayang, we haven't had "alone" time. But I've been busy and you have been busy. I'm sure we will have more time. Besides absence makes the heart grow fonder... hehe... love you. Biggest topic: MOTOR... seems like evryone jus got one and like hehe... took my first ride last week (thanks nif). It was cool.... My mum freaked out was freaking angry... haiz... hopefully in time she will understand... otey... gotta study for my test... (as if i'll do it now) :p

3:47 PM; i'm flying away now Y

Hey there... long time no blog... my reason for not blogging is becos my blog is so ugly... Can't stand it!!! hehe... niwae, it's the content. Jus need to vent... haiz... My beloved group of actors and i got into the finals!!! So happy... Although some pple might not be so happy... I AM! I really love my freshies they have been so awesome and really gave their all. Although i heard a few might be quitting. But i really wish you would not. Cos i think the most exciting thing about drama is the pressure. But then again I'm not evryone. If not this world won't be wat it is today.... It would be worst! ahaha! Same old same old... another production, a million problems. Me being in the management post feel really different. It's like I'm the one, the go-to girl. and i admit i am lazy... and sometimes my laziness make pple impatient. So anyway, pple got irritated, pple got stressed... pple got egositic!

EGOIST:
One devoted to one's own interests and advancement; an egocentric person.
An egotist.
An adherent of egoism.

All i have to say is... thanks ah... lek sua! kasi org headache... suka ke pe? I'm not on anyone's side... remember that! Niwae, benda dah lepas... I don't wanna talk about it or hear about it. We're frens outside and inside drama... so chill... no grudges.

But evry problem encountered there was a solution... so it's a lesson learnt evrytime... life lessons that cannot be taught in books... in marketing, experience (something)!!! (Jus had my test yesterday and i forgot!) Niwae, i'd like to say thank you to our seniors Anwar, Fadlin, Hisham. Thanks for putting up with our childishness and helping us keep drama interesting and not a chore. Thanks ah....

Bottom line! I love drama... I love titisan!! Thanks ah... Azlina, Fana, My baby, Siddiq, Helzie, Fid, Aini, Nas, Rifaie, Firdaus, Fauzi (abih percaya!), Ria and fizah.

Last but not least the support of MAG. Our beloved president, amin. Our seniors kesayangan, izhar and Hidayah! love you all! MMMWah!

9:32 AM; i'm flying away now Y