Fights

I think that this is hard. I feel happy when I get Singapore flight. But when I'm in Singapore I feel like I want to break myself into a million pieces. I have a boyfren who loves to spend time with me. I have a family who loves to spend time with me. I have friends who loves to spend time with me. How do u do a million things at once? Not to disappoint so many pple. My friends in Dubai say wah sheereen lucky eh tak gaduh ngan adib. Oh well, what is a relationship without fights? I hate it but it happens. I've had this convo with my frens. Why can't I just drop evrything and jus be a girlfren? I can't... I'm not built that way. I take letting pple down as a disappointment in myself. And I feel the guilt like ten folds. Which sucks... For everyone. Is there such thing as a perfect everything? Stay in Dubai away from all the pple I care about is sometimes comforting. Most of the time it isn't. Welcome to my own "Everybody Hates Sheereen".