Choices
The things you do now will affect what happens or what you do in the future... So if you don't stop now, your future might be pre determined by what you did a few hours ago. Wondering why i'm typing this out... personally i dunno... I guess i've always had this feeling where every little thing that you do has sumthing that can be related or sometimes out of this world relation. I dunno u make a choice and you do it... the consequences is in your hands... there's no one else to blame except u, urself... therefore, think before u do anything... even if it means mindless things like sleeping on ur rite or turning on the comp at a certain time... Not to say big things....that's all I haf to say...

12:38 AM; i'm flying away now Y

God, I feel like hell tonightThe tears of rage I cannot fightI'd be the last to help you understandAre you strong enough to be my man..Well, nothing's true, and nothing's rightSo let me be alone tonight'Cause you can't change the way I amAre you strong enough to be my man..Lie to me, I promise I'll believeLie to me, but please don't leaveI have a face I cannot showI make the rules up as I goJust try and love me if you canAre you strong enough to be my man..Are you strong enough to be my man..Are you strong enough to be my man..Are you strong enough to be my man..When I've shown you That I just don't careWhen I'm throwing punches in the airWhen I'm broken down and I can't standWould you be man enough to be my man..Lie to me, I promise I'll believeLie to me, but please don't leave

1:40 PM; i'm flying away now Y

Times
my baby brother, Imran just turned 15. My brother, Irfan's girlfriend. And i'm freaking 20. I'm probably the only person in this entire world who feels funny. I mean i was 15 once and now my baby bro is 15, it feels weird like his not ready to grow up and stuff. As weird as this sounds, i still hug that gemuk boy and say that he is cute (this is partly due to my mum's cuckoo ways). And that ah beng boy... he has changed so much. I prefer to talk to him as an adult cos he is so close to my age. But it's kinda funny that he has a gf ah. then i think back, he is only a yr younger than me so what do i expect? merepek ah, Sheereen ni. Love my bros... can't they jus stay like those cute little pics we had... Mr Marshmallow (Irfan) and Mr Big Nose/Drooly/cutey pie (Imran). Who thinks I'm a nut, just raise your hand. But rite now i'm happy calling them kudut (fan) and gendut (man) haha... they jus hate me when i call them that. But gemuk got no choice ah becos he IS gemuk! haha... Last time during holidays, our parents dun let us play downstairs, so we end up talking and talking and then laughing and laughing like for hours lah... mcm org giler but it was freaking fun. Talk about a lot of stupid things ah. how they used to give me a nickname LongBean cos i was taller than them (which is a sad myth now) then irfan was known as Taugeh cos he doesn't like taugeh and he is thin like taugeh and imran is and always will be tomato for obvious reasons... haha... so rite here rite now this blog entry is dedicated to my gemuk and kudut!!!

2:51 AM; i'm flying away now Y

life
I haf about 4 more weeks till i graduate... wothout realising it, i haven't been doing a lot of things i love to do. I haven't been spending as much time as i would like with my slack club members or rather try not. I haven't been spending time with my darling boyfren who as much as it frustrates and saddens me is goin into NS on my last day of school. I haven't been doing much good work even though all my time is devoted to work and sch. I haven't been much good of a drama president cos i haven't been doing anything. It saddens me so... This month is the toughest month. I even forgot that my monthsary was 2 days ago cos farhan currently doesn't haf a phone and i can't contact him and whenever he calls i get so happy tat he calls and i forget to wish him like i always do. so what is happening to me? it's only a month. I hope my frens won't judge me... i love you all jus that circumstance makes me kinda fuzzy and confused. miss you all a lot. so till we meet which is probably end of this dreadful sem... I'll see ya!

1:09 AM; i'm flying away now Y