I'm currently 19 and gonna be 20 soon. Gonna go out into the world and into the workforce. I know some people just cannot wait to get out of poly but me.... i can wait. Is it fear i'm feeling? But i know if i dun get out there, into the real world.. financially I think my parents are gonna suffer.... on my studies or watever. my mum might be facing retrenchment and wat comes to mind... who's gonna pump the cash? one thing that keeps me going is the money factor.... how to help my family. Seeing my mom, she's jus stressed. Evrytime she talks to me abt my dad or watever I wanna cry but i have to stay strong. I dunno how much stronger i can be. I've jus been given the title of titisan temasek's chairman. Soon I'll be working at fish and co without the trainee badge I hope.... then there's school. Then there's family and friends. Can i cope? it's gonna be a big challenge for me.... hope to survive.... but i trust all the members of the new titisan comm. They're my frens and I work well with them. So i think it wouldn't be a factor. I hope i can be a good leader and dun break under pressure. Maintain my crazy old self! haha.... I'm learning as i go... I'm no powerful actress, i have no idea about lighting or sounds or watever.... but i'm gonna try.... bismillah

10:01 AM; i'm flying away now Y