Crap

What did I do to deserve this anger from my mum. For friends who are close to me, my mum and I are close. We haf coversations and she always has to comment on how fat I am. Ya I am fat. And ya I'm trying to work on it. I hate to work out. Seriously, it's the shittiest thing to do to me. Heads up to evryone who can get that adrenaline rush. I just don't get it. So what do i do. I just sit in front of the tv and eat in moderation. Lovely! I love this life. Some may consider this unhealthy but who freaking cares. I love spending my days in front of the tele in Dubai! you can never do that when you're in SG. It may seem like i'm depressed and I hate Dubai. Well Dubai is not my chosen place to live in with all that traffic and noise. I dun plan to live in a slump here. I plan to get a drivers licence, I plan to achieve that before my family comes. I do haf goals. But my current goals rite now is just to do lotsa flights haf a saving of 10,000 dollars by the end of this year. Freak I know it's not enuff but that's the goal. I want my showtime. I want to be a bum! but then she goes sarcastically like ya just come back to sg lah. U always miss your boyfren. I miss SG cos i had a life there. I had a fun job, I had teater, I had great friends and I planned to join SQ. But this I never ever planned for. It just took me in a whirlpool of changes. Imagine a girl who all her life has been supported by her overprotective parents thrown into this place in the gulf alone. I have made really good friends and I'm adapting. I know SG is not a place for me to achieve my goals. THERE'S NOTHING LEFT IN MY HOMELAND!! I get it. We can't haf evrything I know that! So stop it ah... Just let me do what I want to do. Freak, 22 and i'm still the baby. I hate it when I'm fat just let me do a nicole ritchie. I know you care but sometimes it's an overkill. What's the point of writing this... pple concerned won't read it niwae.