Expectations
I keep telling myself, no expectations, no disappointments... So when you want somthing and you go for it... kirakan try-try ah... then u say the above saying, are u really, truly not expecting anything? Lu rilek sua... Sampai masa nyer you will be disappointed also... it's jus a matter of how big or small this impact is... Disappointment, yeah that's how i feel. SOmthings are jus not justified sumtimes and you jus dun haf anyone to turn to. I mean yeah, frens and family try to console you but the bottom line is you're not good enough. Trying my very best to make sense out of the situation but that's the raw truth. But hey, still holding up that happy,cheery smile and make evryone else happy... Pentas is on the way, yeah didn't get an acting role but i suspect i'll be quite busy... oooh wee! Nadi shirt aku nak chope satu! haha... then my bf is away for 2 weeks... Sent him off yesterday. Last few moments he went like "I'm going to miss you, you're already missing me already rite" Aper tak? wah... dah sedih semcm seh.Then when i turn ard i saw this guy leave his gf and the gf wiping tears from her eyes... kau... cannot control liao! maintain... haiz... thankfully i reached home without any tears shed... but jalan ah eh... like so draggy... so sad ah... I'm going to miss him a lot! so siaper siaper boring... callling calling ah eh. busted seh dah takde bf baru nak cari kawan... u know i know i'm not like that... ok going off to the Gym... MMMWAH!

10:23 AM; i'm flying away now Y