Sheereen's World

In the middle of the night... I go typing in my sleep...

2009-04-07T03:15:00.000+08:00

Howdy do dee bloggy... So it's like 3 am DXB time and I just got off from sleeping on the couch while watching one of my favourite movies Speed. I just loved the chemistry Sandra Bullock and Keanu Reeves shared in the movie. But yea.. I fell asleep. I think 2 movies back to back was just a little too much to handle. Watched Changeling before that... Really good movie... Awesome acting by the little boy Sanford I think... Power seh!

Why am I even typing this? I have tonnes of things to worry about but I just thought I'd reminise (spelling check!) a bit. 3 years in Dubai this coming May 24th, had just signed a contract and impending another promotion, insyaallah in 3 months time. Was having a blast the past 5-6 months in First Class but needed a change. Yes, I am so blessed to be upgrading at this economic climate. Not that I'm complaining it's just too huge a step... I'm hoping to come out changed not have people wonder why I'm doing the job when I'm totally unfit for it. This is my challenge to myself.

Life in the friends zone. Dubai certainly has changed a lot for me. There are days I just wish I could be a hermit again... Especially as the 26th draws near cos my bank account will be running low. But I have really good friends here and totally not complaining about it. Friends in SG, hmm... It's getting hard to keep the dynamics of the fab trio of Az, nat and I but insyaallah we won't lose touch. I miss them dearly with Nat being in Sydney and all but true friendship will take on any test. Izad is in a relationship so he's in cloud 9, not to be touched till 3 months... Really happy for him, cos he's been searching a long time and he has finally found the girl. Admire him for doing that. He knows what he wants and he goes for it. As for Hanif, as quirky as he is, I still love him as much! So indecisive about love yet so certain about life. Although his life plans took a little shake cos of the economic climate but he'll pull through, he always does.

Adib and I are going strong, days when I wonder why try and somedays are just too amazing to let go. It's the same with all relationships that has lasted this long. He is now doing what he loves and accepts me for doing what I want to do. The relationship has gone to a new level with a goal for us. Insyaallah. Home front, I'm happy to announce: IRFAN IS GRADUATING!!!!! So proud of my brother, we know it's been quite a tough journey for him. Although it took a long time, everyone says nice and slow wins the race. He won the race and the whole family is just ecstatic. Parents are wonderful and Imran is just Imran lah.

As many things progress, there are somethings that took a turn to the worse. Friendships were made fast and quickly it broke down. The year 2008 has been memorable and a lot learning had to be done. Lost some friends just cos things are not going the right way and that caused the wound to get worse and worst.Yet it's life. Would give anything to have the way things were. To most of my friends, I miss you and I'm sorry I haven't been there for your big ceremonies and events but keep me in the loop, I love sharing your joy and sadness. For those who thought they lost me thru whatever circumstances, I'm still here...

13 days and counting...

2008-09-14T07:22:00.000+08:00

Never thought I'd ever leave Singapore to make a living in a foreign country. Never thought songs like Sudirman's "Balik Kampung" or the phrase "pulang ke desa" would ever mean anything to me. I know it's super early to be listening to Hari Raya songs but it's getting me so pumped about heading back to SIN. It's like a race to finish my flights and to finish my course and pack my bag and go! Do I make staying in Dubai miserable? It's miserable if you're here during raya! Sorry to peeps who can't go back... Insyaallah nxt year!

Novelty of Raya still high on my ranks possibly cos it's the only time I can catch up with majority of friends and family. My nephew Euan unfortunately will be in Adelaide finishing his final year. You are cetainly missed dude! Come back as a graduate!

What am I doing up at 7am DXB time? Truth is haven't slept! hehe... Intentions of picking up GFs from flight but it was half achieved. Got niza's flt arr wrong... :P hahah... But it was nice to catch up with Alvi, the traveller, on the journey to her home.. She's leaving us to go to BKK and SIN... Crazy girl! Certainly been enjoying spending time with them. As time passes, there's only a certain group of pple you can really click with and the rest become acquaintance. Even certain close frens can be downgraded to that level sometimes. People who you thought understood what you mean or why you do certain things, but other times it's just off. I'm not the sort of person who confronts situations, but sometimes I wish I would. What if I start? Will things be better? Hmmm....

Oh well, when I'm heading home, I'll be catching up with my family and friends who have been there for me and who knows me! Can't wait....

My ramadhan in Dubai 3

2008-09-05T11:01:00.000+08:00

Third time I'm fasting here in Dubai and it's been quite good. I've got new found friends and old ones to accompany for iftar so that I don't feel so lonely. likey likey... Haven't had a SIN flt in 2 mths but there has been lotsa blessing behind this misfortune. Sheereen has finally passed her driving test after taking it a numerous number of times... but considering the recent accident(s) she's had, she believes that the success might have been a fluke. Shan't describe to what extent the damage was made shall be kept in the circle of trust. :P

First day of Ramadhan, I had an eye infection which had me tearing up suddenly and me resulting in calling in sick. But got udang sebalik mee cos at the stroke of midnite, miss Surya spent her leave to see us. That evening we buka at Aniza's place. Aniza made a fishball soup proving that she can cook and Audrey's BF naser cooked his own style a treat from algeria. I haf to invite them for iftar one day to but... what shall i cook! Hehe... The subsequent days we ended in Tony Roma's 2 nights in a row! Niza's BF came for a visit and he has said that the reason he came to Dubai is not to see niza... but to have ribs... that's love man! Hehe... jangan marah niza! Surya and I had a blast... kita kan ader "kereta" jalan2 was quite a breeze... we did surya's 101 things to do list... which at the last minute grew and made it impossible to complete! Nonetheless, her visit was fun and greatly appreciated. Looking forward to many holidays to come!

I have a new Korean flatmate who just arrived a week ago. My previous Thai flatmate kept to herself most of time and this one is so different. She invited us to haf dinner together and stuff which is cool. Hopefully it will be a start to a great friendship. I am missing everyone at home but keeping myself at this major task at hand which will be due in 2 weeks! Please pray for me... And when that is over... BALIK KAMPUNG! 2 words I never thought I'd say before I came to Emirates!

Unbelivable week!

2008-07-20T17:59:00.000+08:00

So I headed down to Manchester earlier this week. Everything went well till about 5 mins to departure this serious looking guy came and requested to talk to the captain and this is extremely unusual. Thinking it might be some cargo problem which is normal and will cause a delay, we were requested to do the service on ground as we were delayed for at least 2 hours. The 2 hours turned to 4 and pax were getting worried about their connecting flights out of Dubai. When we finally took off, the questions never seemed to end, if only I got 10 dollars for the times I gave the same answer. When we finally landed, Captain informed us that there was a suspicious item in the cargo which resulted in all of the cargo offloaded to be inspected. But it was very serious and scary.When it happens to you as a delay all u can do is complain but when you got the whole picture, you're definitely thinking better safe than sorry.

With the delay, everything I planned for the next day was affected. I was supposed to have driving lessons and it was cancelled. But it was a good think I went if not I wouldn't have known that the branch I go to has up and left to the middle of the desert. Thankfully, there was a shuttle and the journey took 15 mins. Still it's a hassle compared to the accessible 10 mins taxi ride to the old branch. Had one more lesson and came late and had only 10 mins lesson only to discover that I was scheduled to take my road test the next day and it's been awhile since I've practised. So when i went back, my instructor called, I left my road permit in his car. So had to rush early in the morning aft the Karachi flight to get it in the middle of the desert before going for my test. The result is of course... FAIL... haiz... 3rd time man!

And before all this, I decided to rush over to SIN for a few days cos just felt like escaping Dubai. Up and left with my uniform to the airport and got on the flight. Yay!! And for the first time I was in SIN and my luggage was left in DXB... Good ah? No underwear, no change of clothes nothing... haiz... This month has been weird... Hope to see the silver lining soon!! hehe...

Jumping June

2008-06-24T03:32:00.000+08:00

Bad habit... getting lazy to update my precious blog and doing it close to once a month. Haiz... Sheereen Sheereen... Bak kata Yana, "Malas Ah!" So what telah happened this June... All kids had a break from school and so did I! My daddy came for a visit cos I was on ground for like 4 days straight and it was too risky to go back to Dubai in time for my Tunis flight...

Papa and Abood desert BBQ

Doris and I in Tunis

Blessed May

2008-05-17T20:22:00.000+08:00

Not so blessed lah... It's my top bid (supposedly, EK gives me priority to get the flights that i choose this May) and I didn't get the Seoul or the SIN-MEL flight I asked for... They gave me lotsa off days and I was blessed cos my SQ galfrens came to visit...

Visitor Number 1: Miss Aristi Faezah... very the nice timing one she... I had like 4 days off... then can spend time with her many many. She is so happy and so in love that makes me so sick! Haha... It's always nice when you're in the relationship than the outside looking in which I recently became a member of. It's a bit weird cos all this while she has been the one looking at me doing all the gushy talk and the bushuk-bushuk name calling. Now my dear friend is in cloud 9 with Mr Azhary. Take care of her ah!!! (3 !!! = serious!) Haha.... It's just nice to see her all lovey (I also want sia!!)

Visitor Number 2: Miss Nur Surya Ambiah... always a delight to have this lady around...

(Left to right: Aniza Yusope, Surya and Sheereen Buncit)

Miss having her around so much seh... Suka sangat. We started this lady's visit by eating ribs at Tony Romas and then lepak at Aniza's pad. So much fun making a fool of ourselves and giggling for hours till miss Aniza couldn't sleep before her flight. (Sorry beb... tapi fun kan?) Then lepak at MOE, shop shop, eat eat... Lepak Lepak got a lot of deep conversations that makes me feel like I'm not going through stuff alone. Thank you so much dear. Enjoy your company lots and lots... Dubai isn't the same without you... May Allah haf a good plan for both of us and kita tak "ketinggalan".... :P

Visitor Number 3: Miss Shazana Latiff.... This lady not many story pasal kena stood up by her! But we hung out a bit in Surya's hotel room for a bit. She's a polymate of mine who hasn't change a bit! Still the same little vain girl with the make up and blotters haiyo... Hope to see ya for your 2nd visit soon deary!

Thanks for your visit ladies... Pleasure lepaking with you guys! Even though this mth I'll be in Singapore for like an hour (bloody SIN-KUL transit in SIN before spending a night in KL), but you made it less heartaching... Can't wait till this mth ends!

Significant Day

2008-04-23T05:11:00.000+08:00

Today was supposed to be a significant day but things change. Today will be a significant day for other reasons hopefully cos I've got my driving assessment test. Hopefully I'm deemed worthy of the dangerous roads in Dubai! Kwangs... But gauging by yesterday's lesson I'm totally screwed.

I've been on an emotional rollercoater these past few days that makes me think if all this is worth the trouble? We're both not gonna win no matter how much we've talked about things. I guess we've both come to a point where drastic changes has to be made and we are both unwilling to take the leap. Lately, I've changed from positive to neutral to total negativity. I used to be filled with so much hope and now there isn't much to hope for is there? I guess the only thing motivation that has kept me going is my family. They are the reason why I'm here and things hasn't changed so much but at least I'm not feeling worthless anymore. My family is able to breathe and settle things that they weren't able to in the past.

This is the promise I made for myself when I started this journey 2 years ago. Promises that I hope I will keep. One of the promises was just too hard, it slipped along the way.

So here's wishing you be happy and may you find yourself and find the one who's gonna be there for you both physically and emotionally. Thanks for the almost 2 1/2 years.

2007-09-29T11:57:00.000+08:00

Ramadhan In Dubai

This is my 2nd Ramadhan here in Dubai and I'm not really a lifer but ok lah got my room mate, Norin to teman me when she's in town. Sometimes meet for Iftar with friends yang selalunya very difficult to meet. For the second time also Aristi came to visit me in Dubai which is nice to make the Ramadhan blues subside for that 24 hours. Thanks beb for swapping to the flight! It's been a good ramadhan so far although I hutang like a lot of days yikes! Alhamdulillah me sihat to see this Ramadhan. Some people might disagree but I really love Ramadhan here in Emirates. Ok lah, a lot of restrictions like clothes and smoking and drinking. It makes things so much more easier for me. Nak pakai that short skirt also teringat rules and regulations save from dosa... Emirates or maybe all the arabic airlines are sensitive to the Muslim passengers and crew who are fasting. It's awesome ah. I really like the whole Ramadhan atmosphere although sometimes you get flights like the ones going to Umrah, kesian ah to the crew tapi it's what we signed up for what. :) I always believe that it's a sign that god sent me here instead of heading me towards Singapore Airlines. Emirates was never my first choice but hey they've been good ah. Not perfect but good ah... Definitely not complaining about my awesome roster next mth happy beb!! Leave for 20 days!!!! Alhamdulillah for my family this Ramadhan has been treating us very well. Irfan is taking his last prac for Motorbike, Nek Dah saved up enough money to go for Umrah (On saudi air... hehe) and the biggest one... my father got a really great new job. Syukur lah... See mama... I told you everything will work out! And also me going back on the 4th can buka with my family... the best thing during Ramadhan! Thank you Allah!! Happy Fasting Everyone!!

2007-09-19T02:15:00.000+08:00

Tribute to GG

Rory and Lorelai Gilmore

I started watching Gilmore Girls since I was in Secondary School and it really is one of my most favourite shows in the world. It's influenced me so much that I'm dead set on having a daughter as my first child. So whoever my husband will be, dun bug me for a first son, you won't get it! The show has a great place in my heart cos my mum and I are kinda close like the both of them. We talk about almost everything under the sun. I keep telling my mum, "Kita kan macam Gilmore Girls!" My mum loves the show too... Besides the mother daughter bond that fascinates me, it's the whole small town thing that is really hilarious. All their little antics and traditions that are such a treat to watch. They dance marathons that go on for hours with the champion (Kirk) dancing around to theme of Rocky, the Little dance items that Miss Patty puts up, the event where ladies had to cook something and their suitors had to bid on them... It's so interesting to watch... Rory is a very smart girl and she made the most awesome speeches when she graduated from high school that can make anybody cry. The look she gave her Lorelai when she graduated from Yale. Gosh, I really want to have that with my daughter. Insyaallah! But all good things must come to an end and this great series finished May of this year and I just watched the last episode today. It left me in tears because I grew up with the two coffee addicts Rory and Lorelai. In the finale, Rory leaves for a dream job and it kinda reminded of me leaving Singapore for Dubai. She said to her best friend Lane, "I'm worried about my mum. What kinda reporter worries about their mum?" So i guess what kinda 22 year old cabin crew worries about her mum. I'm sure everyone here does. I'm sad it ended it was a great show for all the daughters and mothers who have awesome relationships. If you have the time, guy or girl, watch this series... You'll love it! To my mummy... I miss you, Mama!

The chubbier version

2007-09-09T20:15:00.001+08:00

Good Company comes in Threes

My dear friends who have made my stay in Dubai more beareable has left me alone in United Arab Emirates. First it was Surya and then Yana... Sending the both of them off is maybe one of the hardest things since my leaving to Dubai. We kinda connect cos all of us have boyfriends back home and like we all are here to help our families... So where are both of them running to? They both jumped ship to our dear national carrier... Lucky them... Get to wear that gorgeous uniform... All the best my darlings! I miss you so much! Come and visit me ok! If not... I cry and cry and cry ah! Love you a lot lah!

Aku sengaja choose gambar ni pasal I make this look good!

I always believe good things come in threes... I guess for me I like that odd number of friends thingee... In these kind of situations, we are forced to talk to everyone and out leave anyone out.. get what I mean? Examples: the pic above... my bandusa gang and az, nat and I... We always end up having a blast hanging out together... good things come in threes...

I miss these 2 monkeys... Love you!

But of course some things are just magical enough that can be left as a twosome...

Sweet tak?? I love Adib!

2007-08-14T08:58:00.000+08:00

A6-EMS

So recently I did a EK404/405 trip (SIN-MEL-SIN). It's a good flight cos I get to see my family and stuff. First up we were delayed getting out of Dubai which is of no surprise to me cos the company loves losing money cos of this I think its like a norm plus they also love making passengers angry and when they finally meet us they are at the peak of their anger. Ladeeda to Singapore... Happy in Singapore... Then we go off to Melbourne. This is the part where I drag myself cos everyone drags themselves to work... so when you reach Melbourne, the aircraft will stay wit you in Melbourne airport for 17hrs. This particular Aircraft Echo-Mike-Sierra, broke down in Melboune! Bloody hell! So when we get a delay, the hotel will slip a note under our door infroming us that our flight has been delayed and when is or new wake up call. First note, 2 hours delayed, 2nd note 2hours and 1/2. Sleep, sleep, sleep.... next note 7 hours delayed! EH I WANT TO GO HOME SIA!! bloody hell... EMS!! I hate you! what happened was the aircraft broke down and they needed a spare part flown from dubai or somewhere else cos Melbourne didn't have it. So we had to wait for the aircraft from SIN to arrive. We took off the time when we were supposed to land into SIN. Sorry to you, you know who you are. Many troubles we have encountered this trip and I hope that there won't be anymore... Thanks for youunderstanding and love. Insyaallah we will both achieve wat we're looking for.

2007-07-24T23:50:00.000+08:00

Airline Anecdotes

When I came back for my first layover in Singapore, Cik Atin told me that I should write a script about all the stories I have in the airline. And Adib suggested hey why not you just like take all your blog entries it'll be great. Dun think I'm capable of writing a script but this is my outlet to vent rite? Had a few interesting flights so far.

Had a flight from Columbo to Dubai via Male. The time frm Columbo to Male is like an hour so we don't haf time for a whole hot lunch. All we had for service is was a cold sandwich. On our part we also made a boo boo lah. Gave menus that were for the Male- Dubai sector. Can just hear my mum saying, "We will never do that in SQ!" Niwae, mistake done, doing the service. This guy complains, "What kinda food is this? Award winning airline serving cold food like this?"

Me: Sorry sir, it's very short flight we dun haf time to heat the meals we only haf time to give the meals and collect.

Man: My son didn't even touch his meal! Not only us, everyone don't even like the meal.

Me: Sorry there's really nothing much we can do.

Man: The flight from columbo to Male has always been an hour you guys should do something to improve it.

Me: That's a good suggestion sir, let me get you the comment form you can inform the company and they can improve on it.

Man: No I dun haf time....

Haiz... But he has time to talk his head off to me. Once I had a lecture this and was told that when customers are told to complain about something in writing, they are too lazy and won't be bothered. Then how can we improve even if we write reports your say is most important. People dun understand that we had a short period of time. And if the flt is full yes we have time to rest. But when it's full we dun haf time for much of anything.

Just went to Frankfurt. German flights are usually really pleasant to do. Not being prejudice but it's true. So was looking forward to it and on comes on the UAE under 16 soccer team. Yikes... Locals have the power to do whatever they want. Their government practically are asking these guys to work... but hey they dun want to. What would I give to stay in Singapore with the our government making positions for us to work in. Anyway, my crew and I had the pleasure of experiencing their power trip. They're teenage boys who rarely fly and are kinda facilitated with latest models of handphones, laptops, MP3 players and PSPs. Announcements on Emirates are done in both Arabic and English. So the saftey videos are also in both languages. But do this pple understand? Will they listen to u? A big no! I dunno why but they were out to make our lives difficult. While doing the service we offered them somthing to eat. No I dun want to eat. Ok fine. 1 hour after we do the service, please give me something to eat. Not only one but like 10 pple wanted it. In Economy we don't practice on demand service cos everything has to be done in masses and it'll be easier for everyone if they eat at the same time. Unfortunately these kids didn't get the idea. So there they were for 6 hours, making noise. Turning on mobile phones when they're not supposed to. Basically having a party. It was unfortunate that I was on the flight but it's the job hazard. They are just mean... My pleasant German flight was not as nice as I wanted it to be. But I made it!

Dunno if there'll be more of these rantings... but that certainly helped! hehe... Till nxt time!

2007-06-03T03:23:00.000+08:00

My year in Dubai

Last mth on the 24th, I completed my first year away from home. It's been a ride. Remembered the first day saying goodbye to all my friends and walking into this new apartment and welcomed by the 2 room mates who I'm really glad to call friends. They really made a home away from home. So as i sit here, I can't help but recall all the good and not so good times I've had here.

I just got back from a dinner I had with a girl named Jackie. She's from Singapore but has been living in all the continents of the world. Really well travelled. She has decided to leave Emirates and go live with her Hubby-to-be in Riyadh after their wedding in Singapore on 07-07-07. She's happy that she's gonna be with her husband Greg. This couple is amazing cos they've been together for 3 years and been apart as long as they've been together. And now finally they're gonna get married and finally settle down together. I guess i admire the fact that she has done everything she wanted to and finally just chill out and live under the comfort and support of her Hubby. Here's wishing her good luck!!! You will be missed!!

Earlier last month, another friend of mine Ikuyo is also leaving Dubai. I met her earlier when I went for the interview in SG. She was so memorable cos she was Japanese and her husband is Singaporean and they have a child. And her ultimate dream was to become a cabin crew. I was so happy when she made to Emirates as well. One thing I do regret is not spending time with her until the week she left. But I guess it's better late than never. She's leaving cos she's been away from her family too long. She really wants to stay but she cares for her husband handling things all by himself. Shindo is probably one of the inspiring ladies I've met and she is so CUTE! (It's just something about Japanese, isn't it?)

Well the year has gone and I'm sure I'm going to haf more of these farewell dinners which I'm not looking forward to but it's part of life. For all my friends who are going to leave, before it's too late... Thanks for making my year a memorable one!

(Just you and I, Sha!! Kwangs!!!)

2007-05-20T14:16:00.000+08:00

Vidoes

I find it amusing when my mum asks me to pull down my shirt and says that she never wears shirts that short (but there were micro miniskirts in her time). I know this entry probably makes me sound like her. But something really puts me off about watching MTV these days. I love most hip hop songs don't get me wrong. I really think that nowadays mojority of Hip Hop videos are like pornography. They are cesoring all the bad words but seriously actions speak louder than words. I support russel Simmons in trying to stop this unnecessary words to be on hip hop songs. Man, the dancers now not only have to be talented, they have to have the booty and the boobies and the bod! Kesian kan? I mean it's like disgusting to me... Why can't we have the old Michael Jackson videos? No matter what people think I love his videos. He has the best videos ever made. Do people really like this? I guess so, if not they wouldn't be making them over and over again. The other day I was watching a remix of an old song (Can't remember wat song) and like 95% of the time they flash this lady's butt in a thong on tv. How many times do u wanna show u cast a girl with an awesome butt that will lead a million girls to be anorexia and bullimia? The butt took up the song that i can't even remember how good or bad the song was. Kesian seh... We should have more videos like "Mickey" with the cheerleaders... So cute... But I can't say all hip hop vids are bad. I still love those wit those fancy dance moves like Ciara's "Like a boy" or Rihanna's "Umbrella" or simple like P.diddy's "last night" pretty faced girl and troubled guy or the collabo between Nelly, Justin Timberlake and Timabland "Give it to me" where they are just like grooving and jamming... Getting too emotional about this topic... Down with Booties in MTV! Quality vids Please!

2007-04-16T01:00:00.000+08:00

Fights

I think that this is hard. I feel happy when I get Singapore flight. But when I'm in Singapore I feel like I want to break myself into a million pieces. I have a boyfren who loves to spend time with me. I have a family who loves to spend time with me. I have friends who loves to spend time with me. How do u do a million things at once? Not to disappoint so many pple. My friends in Dubai say wah sheereen lucky eh tak gaduh ngan adib. Oh well, what is a relationship without fights? I hate it but it happens. I've had this convo with my frens. Why can't I just drop evrything and jus be a girlfren? I can't... I'm not built that way. I take letting pple down as a disappointment in myself. And I feel the guilt like ten folds. Which sucks... For everyone. Is there such thing as a perfect everything? Stay in Dubai away from all the pple I care about is sometimes comforting. Most of the time it isn't. Welcome to my own "Everybody Hates Sheereen".

2007-03-13T13:56:00.000+08:00

Titi's visit and more

I was blessed recently with a visit from my dear friend Aristi. So far she's the only one that has visitied since I'm here. Then again, all my friends are in NS or schooling can't reeally blame them rite? Hehe... Oh well... No offense guys. But it was blast cos we went to the Mall of Emirates, made sushi and bought her supply of choc and nuts... Oh well, I really still like SQ's uniform. The only thing I like since I've heard so many scary stories from Titi. Oh well, as of now, Emirate's suits me just fine. If they keep giving me Singapore flights and I keep getting money! Kwangs!

EK 2049, "As a passenger to Munich on EK049"... Called Evita and guess what!! Become passenger ah to Munich. Not only was I a passenger... I was a passenger in Business class. But I think that being a passenger so leceh. Had to get to CBC then to the airport, check in your luggage. Basically, it's weird ah. But it was a great experience. Made a total klutz of myself, kept knocking the first officer's leg beside me, got the tape into the player and it couldn't come out and I spilt apple juice all over the F/O's seat. Man... What a day it was for the First officer! And on the way back, the whole crew was like "Are you ready for work?" and I was like... Of course and everything... And what was the load? Only 95 pple in economy... Say it with me people.. HOLIDAY!! hehe... it was so good! WIth more than half the cabin empty... Beautiful!! We were so bored we had time for this...

After Munich, I had a flight to Frankfurt... Operating crew this time. But I had an amazing purser. The Funniest one I ever met. Oh well, they had like too much to drink and decided to use words that are totally inappropritate for Public Announcement (PA) for take off and landing. Well can't really remember the words but they were along the lines of sex, nipple, camel races (?), tits, chiquitas I think... It was great fun... Good flight...

Oh well I had great 2 flights... The next one no matter how the crew... It will be great cos it's home!! woo hoo!! see ya!

2007-02-23T21:27:00.000+08:00

Crap

What did I do to deserve this anger from my mum. For friends who are close to me, my mum and I are close. We haf coversations and she always has to comment on how fat I am. Ya I am fat. And ya I'm trying to work on it. I hate to work out. Seriously, it's the shittiest thing to do to me. Heads up to evryone who can get that adrenaline rush. I just don't get it. So what do i do. I just sit in front of the tv and eat in moderation. Lovely! I love this life. Some may consider this unhealthy but who freaking cares. I love spending my days in front of the tele in Dubai! you can never do that when you're in SG. It may seem like i'm depressed and I hate Dubai. Well Dubai is not my chosen place to live in with all that traffic and noise. I dun plan to live in a slump here. I plan to get a drivers licence, I plan to achieve that before my family comes. I do haf goals. But my current goals rite now is just to do lotsa flights haf a saving of 10,000 dollars by the end of this year. Freak I know it's not enuff but that's the goal. I want my showtime. I want to be a bum! but then she goes sarcastically like ya just come back to sg lah. U always miss your boyfren. I miss SG cos i had a life there. I had a fun job, I had teater, I had great friends and I planned to join SQ. But this I never ever planned for. It just took me in a whirlpool of changes. Imagine a girl who all her life has been supported by her overprotective parents thrown into this place in the gulf alone. I have made really good friends and I'm adapting. I know SG is not a place for me to achieve my goals. THERE'S NOTHING LEFT IN MY HOMELAND!! I get it. We can't haf evrything I know that! So stop it ah... Just let me do what I want to do. Freak, 22 and i'm still the baby. I hate it when I'm fat just let me do a nicole ritchie. I know you care but sometimes it's an overkill. What's the point of writing this... pple concerned won't read it niwae.

2007-02-12T19:27:00.000+08:00

Congrats

My aunt just got married last weekend. Unfortunately, I wasn't there. Busy busy at work. Need to recuperate the losses I made last mth when I went back for holidays. Congratulations to Ucu and Uncle Sabeer! It's been a really long time since my family has had a wedding... I think almost 20 years. So I guess it was a bit of adjusting for everyone. When I went back the last time, I made my dad a new baju kurung which looked excellent (I hope) Very chinese dynasty colour. It's a celebration and my dad was becoming the wali for the first time. Don't you agree that my dad has to look good? My mum says he did. I didn't get to see it cos he had to get his custom made... cos my dad is geylang's santa clause! Kwangs! Apologies again for not being there but glad you like the gift. A huge present in the shape of 2 palms for my brother... which at this point of my life is quite a huge expediture. He did very well for his O levels. I guess it's expected... clever buncit! My MP3 player has finally proven that it's cheapness... I'll take any donations... especially the ones that start with i infront... Ipod... Ipod mini... Ipod nano... get my drift... my 3 buddies you guys owe me a pressie niwae! kwangs... This mth is tiring mth... But i'll get through! kisses to all!!

2007-01-20T15:05:00.000+08:00

Quicksand

Have you ever realised how small things that you do can result in such a big result? Like if let's say you delay washing the dishes after you makan rite? Then when you finally get up to do the dishes, quite difficult to wash cos it's hard and stuck on the plate... (Exactly what I'm doing now! kwangs) Well lately, I feel as though a lot of things in my life are going like quicksand... You dun really see it but you know if u finally do find it, you're in deep shit... All this delaying and taking forgranted is really no good. What to do man! Dah lah shall not be like that nimore! New year new motto.... My dear fren Izzy has just sent me an Email. She's super happy in the USA having her holidays. I also want to go for a holiday man. Soon I shall do that! Nanti kau! I had a great time in Johannesburg cos we went to the Lion Park... Just go to my multiply... the photos speak better. :) Right now I'm sitting in front of my TV watching Princess hours... and Nursing a flu. It's like my room mate Norin had it now my turn... haiz.. I have a lot of errands to run... but like what my mum says, kita hanya merancang... tuhan yang menentukan. To all my frens who are sick (yea there's a lot of us) get well soon!!

2007-01-08T01:33:00.000+08:00

OC got canned!!

I'm so saddened by the fact that the OC won't be airing after this season. And this season is so good cos they finally got rid off (in my dad's words) the penyakit that is Marissa! I dun understand why they can can something so good! It's such a sad sad fact. And I think the new episodes of Gilmore Girls are just so dull! *yawnz* it's like without lorelai's quirky dialogues it's just another mum and daughter show that does just lacks the the winning formula! WHY? This is a disappointing year in TV... sheesh! So very the sad! Why am i so passionate? Oh well... I'm such a big tv buff. I guess that kinda explains why my blog and multiply is so dead... but fear not... I have bought a camera! A casio exlim! I likey! been taking stupid photos all day! Hehe... Adib can testify to dat. Today I turn 22! woo hoo! happy birthday to me! Nothing really matters after 21... haiz... nites!

2006-12-19T02:50:00.001+08:00

Food

You never realise how food actually brings people together. You know when I have to answer what would you sell to the pple about Singapore? I would definitely say the food. Cos it's like a one- stop junction to a world of delicacy from all parts of Asia. We've got almost evrything you want! It's good rite. When you meet pple and you have people who are like they eat evrything tapi are not willing to try certain things and just dun really want to fit in. I dunno if you understand me. Ok take this as an example:

A: C'mon let's go for Sushi! It's like really cheap.... (collectively all agrees with A)

B: (makes a face) Eww... I dun like that. I dun eat fish... When i went to Nagoya thank god there was chicken! So I ate chicken.

A: So are you like vegetarian or you can't eat beef or stuff like that?

B: No, I just eat chicken. It's the only thing I like.

Points to learn:

If you dun like something dun make faces at it
If you dun like something be considerate that it might be part of a person's culture.
You also dun have to make others feel bad cos you can't join in the fun cos u find it utterly disgusting.

Tak faham babe... Orang yang travel ni, they are supposed to experience a totally new experience. If u end up bringing Milo and what nots and a kitchen to masak what you normally masak back home, what's the point. Ok maybe in Halal terms, fine... Not supposed to eat unclean stuff. But there are ways around it. Imagine like if u dun try something, how would the host feel? How would the person who wants to have you for company feel? Food really brings pple together. I'm so glad I met Adib, he eats whatever I eat and we are reknowned for our food escapades. I just want him here with me and we can grow old and fat together. Sorry if I offended anyone. I'm open to pple having choices and glad they are so definite on their choices unlike fickle minded me. But I just dun like pple bursting someone else's bubble ah.

*another pointless entry... going to dusseldorf baby!

2006-12-04T14:38:00.000+08:00

Happy day!

Happy birthday to Bik Gaya, Amelia and Norin! Semoga Allah berkati hidup mu dan semoga happy selalu!!

Wat's up with Miss Dubai... Nothing as always. You know UK flights are very terrible to do cos first you do your cocktail service and by the end of that your cart is empty cos all the alcoholic drinks has been taken and yet while you are doing your service, the pple will still ask you for a "G&T or Brandy & Coke" mak ai! Boleh mati lor... UK flights are also popular for their special means correction... Asian Vegetarian meals... Hundreds... Only incentive is that you get your allowance in pounds and that you get to sleep a lot.. Oh well, all jobs has it's plus and minus rite? This is just one big minus cos we have like 5 UK sectors going like 50 times a week! Watever lah... Just do and forget it ah. The glory of the job.... You probably won't meet up with the pple you were trapped with in the same aircraft for 8 odd hours... Alhamdulilah! I was washed with like 4 glasses of water yesterday... Haiz... Thank god it wasn't red wine or anything. Phew! Things I should be doing at this present moment:

I have to go buy groceries. I have all these rempahs but I dun have any meats. Quite funny ah. If only I can bring myself to get out!! Haha... Emirates has pampered me to much with a nice house! :P
Go settle Imran's ticket entitlement. Hehe... Imran cannot get his cheap tix cos I just found out that Emirates has forgot to put his name with the rest of my family... Too bad ah man... I'll fix it lah dun worry... :p in the meantime pakailah mama nyer free tix eh!
Exercise... Fatty fatty bom bom... Sheereen dah gemuk siul! Sihat lah katakan... I'm on my way to becoming the next Nutty Professor.

At least I have vacuumed my room and washed my toilet... Baby steps. Kwangs... Quite happy with my multiply now... goody! See ya peeps!

2006-12-02T07:23:00.000+08:00

Manchester

Manchester is very cold at the moment, unfortunately for me I don't really like cold weather. It's not like I destest it or anything it's just that living in Singapore has made me so closed minded to any other weather. And Dubai weather now is just as bad. But I do love the difference of weather since I came. It's good. So Dubai is really beautiful this time of year... Like you cn actually walk around without feeling you are about to die. Just need a nice jacket and a sweater. Wonderful. Oh well it could've been more wonderful If my plans of having Adib here were accomplished. But I dunno why I'm so not abled to save enough money. Yelah, gaji bomb... but what happened to the money I wonder. I don't really buy lotsa material stuff so there isn't any physical evidence. The leave really took a lot of money out of me! Haha..... My weight has really gone up, FATTY! Charged almost all foods on my credit card! Haiz... I went to Liyana's new place a few days ago... All I can say is I'm so jealous... Oh well maybe when I get my own transport, I'll move there... Ya rite! Too lazy! My holiday in SG was great! I did so many things. Although it was sad to leave, I was quite eager to start my life in DXB again. Going back home made me realise the reasons why I came to Emirates. Ya I miss everything but stuff like walking down Orchard Road on weekends (even weekdays) just make me want to scream! WHERE THE HELL DID THIS 4 MILLION PPLE COME FROM???!!! Dream come true is to have my friends and family in DXB... I'll be happy! You can't have the best of both worlds rite. The time in Manchester is 23:33 and I slept already... I've got eyebags... Physically this job has started taking it's toll on me... Yep! Ok I have a multiply i just created but it's quirky... Tolong ajar! haha... I can't upload photos.... Weird rite... Please visit me at www.sheereen08.multiply.com Should be the add ah... :P wake up call 10:30 tido ah beb!

2006-11-11T01:05:00.000+08:00

Home

It's been really great to be home for the past 10 days or so... I really feel I deserve it after all that hard work man. Well it really is hard work. But all this holiday has made me not miss work and want to stay here... First time kasi duit raya... So fun ah! Yelah kasi mcm heart pain ah pokai... tapi fun man!! HAHAHA! nothing much to update ah... maybe boring2 kat dubai update ah... As for now! PARTAY!!

2006-10-28T04:58:00.000+08:00

4 days DOK!

Mak ai... betapa senang hati beta... Akan ku pulang ke Singapura yg penuh meriah dgn 2nd week raya festivities... Walaupun org cakap dah basi... Aku tak kisah! Happy dol! Dapat balik... dapat tgk mama papa... dapat tgk buncit ngan kudut... dapat tgk Nek nah... Dapat tgk Nek Dah... Dapat tgk Adib Bushuk.... eh brapa byk org dah nak tgk! First raya in Dubai... Technically not in Dubai lah... Pasal si anak di rantauan ni berada di Johannesburg pada Hari Raya... Nasib kerja beb... Kalau tak... Habis lah gua peh tissue kat rumah!!! Tapi malam raya gereks... Org singapura yang senasib semua pergi ke Al Garhoud where we ate rendang, sambal udang, kari ayam... walaupun byk campur air atau instant, tetap riang suasana raya di Dubai. As for the suasana of the locals... MENDAK SEH! Haiz... too many ex pats... But what to do... dah nasib... Then like tradition in SG, kita tgk Bujang lapok... not one... BUT 2! haha.... Giler... Well we made the best of it... What can we do rite? I mean it was a sad day for all of us... But we had a deep sense that we were not going thru it alone. Misery loves company but not to sound so cruel lah. I mean, eventually balik per... Cuma kena byk sabar ah. Alhamdulilah after all the disappointments I've encountered with Emirates, they haf given me the best thing... Off days to make my leave longer and amazing flts after the leave. Haiz... Alhamdulilah... Evrytime when i feel down they pick me up. Thanks lah eh! My baby bro, Imran couldn't celebrate raya also cos he had teruk rashes and he had to stay home. Ended up raya as a trio... haha... Mama, Papa and Irfan... Kwang3 this raya gets weirder and weirder... Me in Joburg pun try to hooray hooray ah... supposed to eat steak pasal it's the best. Wah... then Halal lagi... lagi lah happy! One sirloin steak... medium well... mmmm... wah.. then nxt day... hooray hooray makan king klip... wah... mmm... haha... betul nyer satisfy myself lah eh... ingat duit allowance pun habis (pasal conversion Joburg money is lesser spend lor!) abis ader balance lah! then nak buat aper... simpan lah eh! I'm only left with Delhi and Manchester and I'm home baby!! Bismillah... please pray that i get a flight back home... I want to balik cepat! I've been a really good girl... Please... I won't ask for anything else... I promise... Amin...

2006-10-17T03:00:00.000+08:00

You win some, you lose some

People say.. wah... so good ah become stewardess get to fly here and there... most of all gaji bomb siak! Haiz... all these are true and thank Allah so much for all the blessings he has bestowed upon me in all the interviews and the tests that makes me the stewardess now. Alhamdulilah... The sad parts are now ah... Raya is jus around the corner. I keep telling myself I'll be fine but the truth is, nope... not fine at all... I was listening to seloka hari raya where the lyrics go like "indahnya sungguh di pagi raya"... Then before i knew it I was crying... ON THE WAY TO WORK! haha... so Lame lah... First time being away from home during raya and i won't be back till the 2nd week... Noreen says at least you get to go back... Ya i know... Tapi masih sayu ah beb... It's like u've been doing the same thing for 20 years and here in this foreign land who don't even haf a taste of our culture... I'll be spending this very special day in Johannesberg... Last year, masih dapat duit collection, challenge with Irfan and Imran! Haha... Or malam raya watching P Ramlee shows for the Upteenth (dunno how to spell lor... English not good) time and still laughing at the same stupid jokes... The SMS-es you get malam raya... Thee look i give to my bros when they haf to go for raya prayers... Kwangs! I will be missing all these!!!! Sabar.... Ni semua growing up! Kepada kawan2 ku yang going to celebrate this raya differently, be it you're in training or in Dubai with me or lost a loved one... Just want to say you're not alone... I feel your pain... Raya this year will just not be the same... Advanced Selamat Hari Raya and Maaf Zahir dan Batin!

2006-10-08T21:40:00.000+08:00

Ladeeda

This is a blog entry about nothing just thoughts that come to my mind within these 5 mins.

1) Called Helzie today: Dunno why I thought of this first but I did. Oh well, I missed him and his nonsense. You know the first time I met him, i heard so much about how naughty he is lah... sarcastic lah... And guess what the impression doesn't change. Haiz... Helzie Helzie...

2) I miss my syg: There are days when it just comes and goes... But it hits bad when during the weekends cos I usually spend my weekends with him... be it with his frens or mine... but we spend time together... Haiz... If only things were different... Oh well... Time will tell and insyaallah it will get better for the both of us. MMMWAH!

3) Been spying on my old secondary school mates: This was fun and all becos of frenster. When one of my batch mates added me as a fren. Niwae, my batch mate just got married and is now pregnant! How wonderful... Then wonder wonder... clicked on this senior of mine who will not even remember me but i remember her... Cos her ex bf at that time is so cute... Haha... But oh well bygones... Niwae, she is now happily married expecting a second baby... Best kan? I mean so many pple you meet in a way just really nice to know what they're doing and stuff even thought they will never remember you. Call me KPO but it's nice...

Ok... 5 mins over... kwangz! (actually exceeded but what the heck!)

2006-10-02T14:50:00.000+08:00

Bad days

I remember one day in Poly I had a horrible day. It was so bad I broke down and cried to Mummy. Like everything you planned goes to the ground and time keeps ticking till the you meet the "death time". It's like a quicksand sucking you to god knows where. But I made through that day when i didn't think i could at that time. And there are some times when u just want to get it over and done with. Breathe again like you've been drowning and you need to reach the surface. Well all I can say to myself is that I've seen nothing yet. I mean there are so many of my friends that have been thorugh so much this year and all I can say or do is that I'm praying for you guys. I know things will never be the same again and living now just takes a whole new toll. But you will make it. Losing something that means so much to you is like being literally wiped off your feet and down to the ground. I'll support you guys no matter what. No matter how far you are. I may not give the best advice or say the right things but I mean well... haha... dalam baik blowing my own trumpet. Happy Ramadhan... and Ramadhan Kareem... Have no idea wat that means but that's what evryone says here. Kwangz....

2006-09-25T13:32:00.000+08:00

Greatest Blog Entry

http://unimpressed-always.blogspot.com/

Yep, it's a blog entry about me. And it's great! :) The greatest thing about it is the writer. Mr Adib Kosnan. I spent the most of my magical short stay in Singapore with this tembam, sick boy. As much as we would like to be together, circumstances doesn't permit us to. I mean it sucks and this is the biggest challenge ever but surprisingly, things are not looking that bad for us. I've been back twice in 4 mths and i'm trying very hard to keep up with the rhythm. Sacrifices made that will insyaallah lead us both to a better future. MMMWAH!

2006-09-18T05:42:00.000+08:00

Through the years

Sometimes you just ponder about where life has brought you and all your friends. And this very moment is just one of those times. Gosh, we used to be so close like we knew each others time tables man. Remember the times when we got our rosters and we even jotted down who had breaks at the same time? We were that lame that we didn't want to spend time with anyone else. And yet here we are in the waves of time, socialising and love, we have drifted away. I mean we still talk like we used to but I guess you can't stop changes can you? Somehow or rather, we have to grow up. Titi and I are hardly contactable cos I'm afraid to call her cos it may spoil her sleep patterns. The only way I can meet Hanif and Zad are during the weekends online. Haider, we're totally drifted. Can't stop this strong powerful wave man. I miss you guys so much. I miss the times when Titi and I used to work in Fish & Co and that the 10th is the favouritest day of the month.. only 1 guess why. I miss my free coffee at Raffles Place and the if I'm bored and feel like having a free coffee I know I can count on Izad! I miss my late night hauntings with Hanif who's like 10 minutes away from me talking about everything from old school days to heart troubles. I mean I'm not saying that I regret all the changes that has happened. In fact I embrace it whole heartedly. Life and the times has been good to us all. I've got my smashing new career and a really awesome and special boyfriend on top of my great friends. I guess I wished growing up wasn't so hard. I still want those "jumpa kat Design" moments and I also want this new life we are all going to encounter. Guess what I'm trying to say is, keep up the good work guys no matter how hard it is. If the next 10 years of our friendship is anything like the last 4 years... I'm all ready for it! Thanks so much for everything!

Seems like this photo was taken a really long time ago...

2006-09-11T15:37:00.000+08:00

Sacrifice- Elton John

I love this song it's so sweet. I mean what is love with no sacrifice? Emo Sheereen at the moment and yes at this moment the song is echoing in the background on repeat. Today, I'm on standby from 1000 - 2200. This is a shitty standby cos basically your whole day is burned and you'll probably won't get called at all but if u feel sleepy, they will call you... Haha... Ironic these crew scheduling people. So Sacrifice your sleep and go to work. Do I seem to be enjoying the job? Hmm... All I can say is that it has it's ups and downs. You reach home at bizzaro hours and once you take off that uniform, you go "What a tiring job!" And then the next day you do the job again. The routine goes on and on. Then you have those wonderful layovers. Only 24hours with Emirates at most destinations but I think it's enough. I mean if u stay longer, the more money you'll spend anyway. So if u're tired don't go out, if you're itching to go out grab someone to go out with you. Oh yah, and the gorgeous hotels you get to live in. Gosh! You cannot believe it. Crown Plaza is so nice! Check this out...

Nice Right? This is the one in Shanghai. I should really start taking photos of the toilets. It come with both a bath tub and shower. Movies are awesome also. It's great! I mean what kinda job actually gives you chance to sleep in a nice hotel. You are paid to sleep!! Haha... But the shit comes when you're working ah. Since when is working fun niwae. So these are the ups and downs. I'm hoping I get an Europe flight. That will be so great... Strolling down Athens or Gazing at the Eiffel Tower or The Louvre or even go shopping in Milan. Woo hoo! But for now...

Sing with me:

London Bridge is Falling Down

Falling Down, Falling Down

lalalala

2006-09-08T16:44:00.000+08:00

Long Update

My update after a long while. I would like to say that I've been really busy these days and my whole life in Dubai has really taken off.... BUT... Too bad, I've been watching Gilmore Girls runs from morning till night. Seriously, what a bargain I made with buying series of Desperate Housewives, The OC and Gilmore Girls the whole season at the price of 1 season! I don't think anyone understands my language. Too much Gilmore Girls seriously. I miss my mum watching more and more of Gilmore Girls. The Mum's crazy like my mum and Rory she has to deal with it. But it's fun.... Anyone wanna join me come over to 21st Century Tower 1601. Haha... Anyway, Manila was great! I would seriously think twice about swapping my flights to Manila. I'm sorry filipinas... It's good shopping... Pantyhose and DVDs galore. It's great fun. I swear next time my entries would be much more colourful than fun fun fun... till next time. Enjoy my marvellous Blog.

2006-08-29T21:28:00.000+08:00

My Blog!!

After Long while!! I have changed my blog skin! I Like!! It was done by my dear fren Izad... Thank you dude! I just got back from London went to have a big bus tour... Really GREAT!! hehe... will put more photos! I LOVE MY BLOG!!!

2006-08-15T19:31:00.000+08:00

My Love...

Ladies and gentlemen, this is my scandal in Dubai....

Then again you can always can have more than one...

Infatuated with these wax figurines! haiz... If i never ever get to see them in person... these are pictures that I'll treasure forever! Madame Tussauds was amazing! There were so many pple there and the queue was for like 2 hrs or sumthing. But my colleagues and i just went thorugh the shuttle one... paid like 2 pounds more and got in. Gosh it was good fun! They had a walk through this serial killers show and they'll just spring out and scare you. All of us were holding on to each other for dear life. All in all had a great first trip to London. Though my second trip not so great. The bomb plot on Heathrow really put evryone on high alert, and it was scary but had a job to do. I'm just glad I was out of there when I did. Haiz... Niwae, all the cute guys in the world in wax are the only ones who are willing to have me. I will say....

Well at least I still have this shy boy... MMMWAH!

2006-08-04T14:34:00.000+08:00

Travels

Achieving something takes you to different places. Sometimes literally and sometimes emotionally. It's funny how people who are of the same race, same interests, same careers, same age act the way they do sometimes. Yet here we are saying stop racism, live in harmony and shit. And inter racial marriage.... eratkan sil ratulrahim... But yet in the same race, we fight amongst ourselves. I know the phrase rambut sama hitam hati lain2. But still shouldn't we understand and accept one another better? Maybe I'm rambling, maybe I'm just sick of all this fighting. Whatever happens... peace! And when all else fails, after many attempts at peace, best solution is to let them be. Let them rejoice whatever they want, let them say whatever they want... I know it sounds crap but u the defeated one, should just bite your tongue and hope for your time to shine. Allah is fair and just. Whatever happens... Peace! Oh well, who am i? Was quoted as a boring blogger niwae. So i got a trip back to Singapore how awesome was that! Like I was on Airport standby and got pulled out for it. It was the lowest point of my life cos I had all these stupid standbys and stuff to do. And that was excatly what I needed. A boost... So trip to SG was good... Then once i touched down I practically called evryone and anyone i could think of! Changi airport never looked so great! We took this massive bus that i came across when i was back in SG telling myself I'll be one of the crew in there... and on the way to the hotel chatted with az, adib my parents. As we alighted I saw my parents with prata and orange juice in their hands.... HOME!!! so checked in, my parents bunked in and it was cool. It was such a good feeling. I met Adib my knight in shining armour the next day in a cab... oh gosh I missed him so much! Cool fact is that he was on MC and that he just celebrated his birthday and i was there to give the pressie to him. It was great! Then we had our tuesdays together again! Then went down to PS to meet all the pple I care about dearly... thanks so much dudes... And we headed to the hotel to take snapshots with the infamous emirates hats! Haha... that was so much fun.... Too many adventures in SG but overall i just had that boost i needed to carry on... THANK YOU EVRYONE! I can't wait for my next visit back in SG. But tomoro Going to LONDON! woo hoo!

2006-07-21T21:31:00.000+08:00

We won the world cup!

Those were the exact words said by purser on the last flight i went to Tehran. She's from Italy obviously. And she was telling evryone she saw and she said that to us before briefing. She's really cute... Then I met like the first maltese guy on the last flight. It was a fun short flight i like all these short turnarounds. Really tiring but fun. I've had a total of 5 flights since i graduated and it's been great. Really look forward to my off days doing nothing watching videos or just chatting with my parents and adib online. It's good. I mean i do haf a life i sometimes do go out! haha... I think being in emirates has a somewhat humbling effect. Cos you go to places like Dhaka in Bangladesh and you see how those construction workers back home live and you get the bigger picture. I may not be the biggest humanitarian but it just awakes your morals if you could say that. People, be blessed cos we are blessed. Well evryone's got problems and stuff, just gotta deal I guess. It's nice flying around. Not complaining bout the pay either. I just miss home. Will give evryone i see a long 1 minute hug if i see you guys! haha.... OFF DAY TODAY!! YIPPEE!!!

2006-07-15T03:26:00.000+08:00

Adventures

I had my two supernumery flights it was awesome... I was really afraid of it cos it was like I was afraid if i didn't like the job or if pple didn't like me. I just went up there and did it. Prayed for the best.. and yea it was good and pleasant. I didn't come across anything that my mind was giving possibilities for and stuff... it was a pleasant one. I only had turnards so I'm really craving for a layover so I can check into a hotel and find out how it is to haf a layover. I'm really excited. So places to strike off cos technically I've been there are Jeddah and Khartoum. Get this... in my flight to Khartoum, my Purser said, " The languages spoken by crew today are Arabic, English, Spanish..... and Singapore!!" Joke of the day... And she did it again on the way back to Dubai. Kwang kwang kwang... it was hilarious. Niwae, been hearing so many stories about relationships. Congrats to my Niece Amelia for getting engaged and she's gonna get married on the 27th of May 2007. I'm really happy for her. I still remember when we were teenagers we were talking abt crushes and boyfriends and stuff. Who knew they would still be together after all these years. Totally amazing. Should read the way he proposed to her guys... super the sweet. He seems like a really nice guy... Lucky her... Which got me thinking how is it possible to stay in love for so long? I mean like it should be hard. And how many of my friends current relationships will last till death do us part? How will i know if my relationship will last? You know how you consult pple when they come to u with their probs with their bf/gf... then you give them advice. But truth is, it is their choice rite? And if god wills it, they will be together for as long as they both shall live. So I guess, dun think so much abt the what ifs... the problems that "may" come up... Just live and love. Take it day by day and be blessed you have that one person to share then to never have that feeling. So Adib, thanks for being with me.

2006-07-03T04:40:00.000+08:00

It's reaching the end

Can you believe it that I've been gone a mth? Woo hoo... slowly slowly 1/2 yr... then 1 year... wahduh cepat si! Gue sgt rindu sama drama deh! Miss my nek nah cos i was watching My big fat greek wedding... kwang3 I know tak practical. Haha... But I miss her ayam masak merah. Then i miss sitting down and just talking nonsense with her. Teaching her english and stuff... Rindu Nek Nah. Then when she talk on the phone... "Sheereen Baik?" haiz... Takpe... Sabar... Torture? Nah... I think it's a blessing cos i've always felt that i've been overprotected by my parents. Now Allah has given me this opportunity. Alhamdulilah... Life in Dubai... I shop and eat a lot during the weekends. Heaven (imran jealous?) Then study... Then go sch... Then test... Then result... Pathetic rite? They have resorted to calling me miss nerd... Cos i can't not study... while my classmates just wing it. *groans*. Reaching the end of my training, it's like a myriad of feelings, like I will miss a few pple in my batch. I'm glad the torture's over. I'm excited for my first flight. I'm scared and nervous for my first flight. My mum asked "Your first day at fish were u afraid?" yes... Same same mah... Alah, embrace it ah. I think once i get my first paycheck, then i'll have an ear to ear grin! kwang3. I've educated half my class on the proper usage of "lah". Gosh that was a tough thing to teach. They put everything with Lah. Aper dah! haha... they very cute. But after spending 5 weeks with them, I've had enuff! No joke, u just can't stand some pple. *counting to 10* haiz... 3 more days to go and insyaallah Iwill fly peeps! Yet to know my first destination. Tml got test... should be sleeping... ZZZZZZZZZ....

2006-06-02T18:28:00.000+08:00

Training College

So the 27th of May marked my first day in the Emirates Training College. How was it? The good thing about Emirates is that I dun have to spend a cent on transportaion. Everything's provided accept when you wanna go shopping... haha... So what happened on my first day in training college.. I waited for the bus and hey there goes a smiley face in a business attire just like me. Halo... her name's Angelica from Russia and she lives on the same floor as I! Woo hoo... Then I met a few others, this cute Indian guy named Arjun, this Irish girl named Ali and several other pple from India. So while we were waiting for the bus which I dun even noe what it looks like, we're just guessing, so the pple who were "seniors" were helping us so it was good. And then we went to the audiorium to get our welcome. Intro self and shit and we had tea and croissants!! That was interesting. 80% of my class was made up of Indians (maybe I'm exagerating, but whatever). After that blah blah blah, we went to the uniform store to get our uni. Which was interesting cos we didn't only get our uniform, but we got our luggage as well. So here we are with heavy luggage (again!!) travelling from one place to the other. The outrageous thing was that we had to navigate through the college all by ourselves and it was our first day! Doesn't matter, we made it through. So 2nd day we had a corporate induction which was meeting pple from other departments under the Emirates group. So we had our groups and my group's name was SINGAPORE! Singapura oh Singapura! haha... Met a pilot and a another person who works on ground. They were very competitive with the games which we overall came in 2nd last place! 3rd day was a clinic day... and woo hoo I didn't get that cannot pee for a long time thingee! But then an aussie girl named Isabelle, Angelica and I went to have dinner and buy grocery which was nice. (Oh my god u guys if you ever come to Dubai Go to the mall of Emirates! Gorgeous!!!) Then here comes grooming day... They did our nails, had a fitness talk, skincare and maekup... the outcome!

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haha... oh well... going through my 2nd week tomoro. Hopefully it'll be great! Good day peeps!

2006-05-26T08:52:00.000+08:00

In Dubai

Yok gi Dubai... Let's haf a blow by blow of my encounters in Dubai shall we? Haha... First time taking Emirates so I didn't realise how small the aisle were. And due to my kiasuness, my baggage was overloaded! So I had to hand carry this huge load of junk! Haiz, so made sure i was the last few to board, had a steward help me put it up in the compartment. So imagine walking from the door to my seat in the with the big bag banging here and there. Dah takpe. So sat in my seat, somehow the gravity was pulling hard on me so dropped little things. So the flight was good, slept and watch this comedy central they had on for inflight entertainment. Cool... had a light snack and breakfast. So when i reached Dubai airport, thinking confidently there's trolley to aid my walk to the luggage area. Unfortunately nopes! So had to carry the big bag to meet my marhaba staff that was supposed to help me at the door. But u actually had to walk out a long way to find them! Then me just walked, saw my name on this electronic monitor, sat there waiting for someone to collect me but no one. So apparently, I had to walk FURTHER down! haiz... So then when I found the counter my name was no longer on the electronic board. So obviously got like, "We waited very long for you!" Duh... I was looking for you! Bygones... So this lady Li "helped" me to this meet and greet lady. (I highlighted help cos she didn't actually). Li brought me to meet Kim, who took my passport and photos and Visa. Then she told me about my apartment and stuffs and called a driver to send me there. Ok, saw many many buildings in Dubai. Very high Tech stuffs.... Me very starry eyed. When i reached my apartment, me went to tell them that I'm new crew here to check into my room. This security guard took my details and the driver unloaded my baggage just outside the door. Then they gave me a trolley to bring upstairs, and with no help at all i had to load it up and bring it up. With my baggage so huge, NO ONE HELPED! haiz... so as i was coming out the lift, one of my bags fell.... haha.... oh well, settled that and looked for my door. And i wasn't able to open the door. Rang the bell but no answer. Was already pressing the lift to go down and ask for "help" but my housemate opened the door! yay!!! I'm not alone. Check this out both of them are sporean malay girls! haha... cool rite... thye've been here since aug and it's fun. Their names are Norin and Nani.... guys must be going like jambu tak? Ya.. they are pretty... and attached to guys in Dubai. So they have their bf over and stuff. Haiz... but not bad. Norin invited me to a bbq they had in the evening with her bf and some frens. It's in the desert! Cool ah... So now updating you guys.... I will be fine... Please pray for me if you miss me. I'll be praying evrytime I feel that I want to break down. Thank you for evryone who came. I love you so dearly! Hanif, you take care k? Hope to be one of the first few pple I meet when i get back! Aristi, Izad, Az, Nat kaurang lah my sayangs time susah senang! The ones who've helped me through evrything! Thanks so much.... To my beloved Tits pple= fana, bedah and bag burg thanks for your support and love. I'll be missing you guys tremendously. To my baby Adib, you know what you mean to me... mmmwah! till next update... gonna start trg on Sat so look out for that!

2006-05-22T08:48:00.000+08:00

From Izad

Name 20 people you can think of right now off the top of your head. Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 20 people. Ready? Start!

Courtesy of Izad

1)Izad

2)Hanif

3)Az

4)Nat

5) Adib

6) Farhan42

7) Baby

8) Ajit

9) Aristi

10) Inda

11) Hasanah

12) Shasha

13) Anwar

14) Ellen

15) Fariza

16) Zul

17) Faz

18) Farhaanah

19) Siddiq

20) Bedah

Q1) How did you meet 14?

At work, Fish & Co Glasshouse.

Q2) What would you do if you've never met 1?

Probably not know about this survey. And a hell lot of OC trivia.

Q3) What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?

Haha... totally not in the books!

Q4) Did you ever like 19?

What the hell! So rite on the dot ah... Embarassingly Yes!

Q5) Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?

No... faz too sarcastic for Farhan42.

Q6) Describe 3.

Bubbly, Creative and Loves to make fun of me.

Q7) Do you think 8 is attractive?

Attractively Funny.

Q8) Tell me something about 7.

She's Farhan42's GF. got a very cool nickname Kyracer. Very biker chick. hehe...

Q9) Do you know any of 12's family?

Yes... used to work with Her Dad. Met her bro before too. and her mum.... Hmm... Didn't noe i knew so much.

Q10) What's 8's favourite?

Favourite Past time? haha... talking about Sex... horny bugger

Q11) What would you do if 18 just confessed he/she likes you?

Aww... i like her too!

Q12) What language does 15 speak?

Malay English...

Q13) Who is 9 going out with?

Some guy from work, Fauzi.

Q14) How old is 16 now?

29 going on 30 i think.

Q15) When was the last time you talked to 13?

Last week at Pondok 5 Sen

Q16) What is 2's fave band/singer?

Haha... Siti Nurhaliza obsesser (correct spelling?)

Q17) Would you ever date 4?

Ermm... No... haha....

Q18) Would you ever date 7?

Nopes...

Q19) Is 15 single?

Nope... very very attached... 7 years running!

Q20) What is 10's last name?

Yikes... dunno

Q21) Would you ever be in a serious rship with 11?

Nah

Q22) What school does 3 go to?

Not schooling yet....

Q23) Where does 6 live?

Tampines near Ngee Ann Sec

Q24) What's your fave thing about 5?

Everything! My baby buncit... his laugh... his smell... his sarcasm... his crooked sense of humor... need i go on?

Q25) Have you ever seen 1 naked?

hahaha... FREAK out! NO!!!

2006-05-17T08:32:00.000+08:00

Cool Shows

Yesterday was given the privillage to watch Teater Kami's upcoming performance preview Pondok 5 sen. It was a blast. Seen the rehersals but yesterday was just exciting. It's a kid's show about 5 frens who play at this "Pondok" (Hut) everyday. You see many "hardships" of being a kid. A really entertaining piece. Congrats you guys! Someone said my comments are too predictable. Niwae, tix for the show if u're interested you can contact me while I'm still here ah. haha... The show will be running from the 24th May to the 27th May. only available night show is Friday. Very the High 5! haha... Will be missing awesome shows. How "wonderful" that I'll be having my training during the Singapore Arts Festival. Will be missing Rock Opera, Titisan in PPP senang kata almost every show ah. Titisan, when you guys get the VCD please burn for me! Good luck and enjoy guys! My laptop has small little red ants crawling all over it. And mine you my lap is filled with insect bites... Go away you naughty ants!

2006-05-09T03:11:00.000+08:00

Enough Enough

I bet you I'm gonna cry my guts out when i go fly off. You know the countdown for Singapore idol? Just add 4 days to that... Enough of all the mushy thingess. I'm loooking forward to moving away. It's my chance to prove that I'm more than a puppet of my parents. No rules... My rules! haha! i can eat bananna nut crunch till my hearts content (dun ask me why, it was first food that came to me) Use the phone till i my ears fall off... Watch TV till my eyes turn red... go home as late as i want! Hebat... haha... me king of my own life!!! haha.... (small tiny voice) I miss my mummy!! I miss my daddy!! I miss my bros!! I miss my Adib!! I miss my friends!! .......

ALMIGHTY AND READY TO FACE THE WORLD! HAHAHA!

HELP....

(Siapa nak layan ni budak?)

2006-05-06T11:52:00.000+08:00

Butterfly Kisses

This is my Dad for those who do not know (the one in red). He's a special guy. Dun think i mention him as much as much as my mum, but i guess it's different kind of love i haf for him. He's just like the male version of me. Seriously! He's going through a rough patch now but he is a survive. It's okay pa... it'll get better... Insyaallah... Although his jokes aren't that funny now, heck they are kinda lame. But he was the one who can put me into hysterics. But thanks dad. Why the sudden daddy's girl post? I simply love this song. It always makes me cry!

BUTTERFLY KISSES

Bob Carlisle

There's two things I know for sure:She was sent here from heaven and she'sdaddy's little girl.As I drop to my knees by her bed at nightShe talks to Jesus and I close my eyes andI thank god for all the joy in my lifeOh, but most of allFor butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer;sticking little white flowers all up in herhair; "Walk beside the pony, Daddy, it's my first ride.""I know the cake looks funny, Daddy, but I sure tried."In all that I've done wrong I know I musthave done something right to deserve a hugevery morning and butterfly kisses at night.
Sweet 16 todayShe's looking like her mama a little more everydayOne part woman, the other part girl.To perfume and make-up from ribbons and curlsTrying her wings out in a great big world.
But I rememberButterfly kisses after bedtime prayer; stickinglittle white flowers all up in her hair."You know how much I love you, Daddy, But if youdon't mind I'm only gonna kiss you on the cheek this time."With all that I've done wrong I must have donesomething right to deserve her love every morningand butterfly kisses at night.
All the precious timeLike the wind, the years go by.Precious butterfly.Spread your wings and fly.
She'll change her name today.She'll make a promise and I'll give her away.Standing in the bride-room just staring at her.She asked me what I'm thinking and I said "I'm notsure-I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl."She leaned over...gave me butterfly kisses with her mama there,Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair"Walk my down the aisle, Daddy-it's just about time.""Does my wedding gown look pretty, Daddy? Daddy, don't cry!"
Oh, with all that I've done wrong I must havedone something right.To deserve your love every morning and butterflykisses-I couldn't ask God for more, man this is what love is.
I know I gotta let her go, but I'll always rememberevery hug in the morning and butterfly kisses.

Dang it's wordy... Nice song!

2006-04-20T01:32:00.000+08:00

2 entries on the same day!

What a treat haha... but what the heck... my blog...

THE FAB FOUR!!!

These four are my closest friends in Poly and they helped me get through lotsa stuff... They are for those who don't know are... aristi, hanif and izad... They are amongst the numerous number of people who i will miss a lot when i go off to Dubai. We are close and it all started with a so called "Sports Saturday" that was supposed to be a weekly thing that only happened twice in our three years in Poly! haha... i was reminded about this by Izad (btw, he's the creator of this pic). Besides talking about these so called promises... Izad commented on something that has made me think and made me sad. Well it's between us... but yea... it aggravates the sadness of leaving.... so i dunno what i'm ranting about again. I'm sorry if i bore you... niwae, dun visit again if u find it boring aight?

Hanif: What can i say about this guy. My best friend, my confidante, my trickster and my driver! haha... he'll kill me for that last bit but heck care! haha... he's the only one who can trick me even till this very day. The only one who would tell me straight in the face about stuff. He is truly a special person to me. More than words can describe. Thanks hanif for everything.

Aristi: The little stewardess... Haha... dreams of travelling together in that little blue uniform. Oh well we will be doing that but in diff uniforms. This gorgeous beauty is the one who i always lose to in the competition for boys. But as time goes by, our tastes in guys are actually quite diff. Haha... But this girl, has helped me through many obstacles and always a good kaki to lepak with.

Izad: My izad!! My buddy!!! We are the unpopular twosome! haha... My best friend and probably the only one out of the three who will visit my blog! haha... He is the best person who understands me cos we are the same person only different gender. Girls you would be stupid to let this one go... You can never get a guy as great as him with the looks to match. Izad has been a pillar of strength for me in so many aspects... Thanks my fellow OC fan!

I love you 3 so very the much. You will be greatly missed while i'm in Dubai... Therefore, i summon you to send me an Email every week to tell me what you're up to and the lastest gossip you have. Izad as your organizer, you haf to write double! haha... watever lah... talking nonsense at 2 in the morn. nite... AGAIN!

2006-04-20T00:49:00.000+08:00

time passes by

I know people make fun of me as being the girl who likes to have boyfrens who are about to go NS. Dunno ah but i guess i attract these kinda guys in this category ah. haha... I find it humourous but it's a huge test ah. It makes me a more independent person. Had an interesting with convo last nite. No matter what you guys think, it's tough to be an NS girlfren. Firstly, without u asking for it, u haf to miss him the first 2 weeks after sending him to dreaded Tekong. Then the only precious time u can talk to him to ur heart's content is from 930 to 1030 before their lights out. Then u haf to wait for their first book out then u will haf a "bangla" for a bf for a few weeks (sorry buncit if u are offended). But baby commented that u tend to sayang them more after they go into NS. And it's so true, cos you only get 48hrs or less with them before they book in again. And even if u talk on the phone, u've only got an hr.... u both wanna cramp as much info to each other before lights out. It's somewhat romantic in a menyeksakan diri way (if there's such a word). So you only have time to treat each other with love and care without wasting time on fighting. All the more you should cut down on the fights. And appreciate the fact that as much as your bf wants to spend time with you, he has a life besides you and the only time he can catch up with it is when he cuts spending time with u and use his book out time to do whatever he needs to. So it teaches you not to be selfish and to think of sharing and being in considerate relationship of giving and taking. I thank adib for this opportunity of maturing myself (although i dun think he'll agree with me) but it's an experience every Singaporean girl must go through ah! haha.... I wanna catch up with az and nat! I miss them terribly... then my bandusa girls... haiyo.... I think i'm sick cos i miss you guys lor... haiz... ok lah... enuff rambling... nite!

2006-04-12T09:43:00.000+08:00

Mummies

Ask any girl who has a healthy relationship with her mum kalau gaduh ngan dier cam maner? Haiya.. i hate this feeling, I upset my mum and now she doesn't even wanna talk to me. I know I'm such a bad daughter, like all she wanted was a small little thing and I had to fail her. When she has done so many things for me. Sucks to the max... Sorry Mama... And one thing about my mum is that she blames evrythin on things that happen in a diff time. Like karma or sumthing like that. And it makes me feel all bad inside... Haiz... Sorry Mama... And Allah please make her talk to me... Can't stand this silence and one word answers... Sorry mama again.

2006-04-08T00:27:00.000+08:00

Long Time no See

Hey hey... sorry long time no hear from me. Been busy waiting to hear from all the different airlines. It has been nerve wrecking i tell you! But it's finally over... Ladies and gentlemen... I'm going to join Emirates in a matter of months. Tentative dates of leaving are the 18th or the 25th of May. Things are very final these pass few days since I've had the news of the departure to Dubai. Please don't be offended if i didn't tell you sooner or directly. God only knows what I'm feeling now. It's still very surreal, very cannot the imagine... People ask how come you can get ah? Well... What can I say? When you're hot you're hot... If only a certain airline could open their eyes and see... Oh well... Please keep reading the blog... Oh yah, just bought a new laptop... Thanks to my dearest Bibik Gaya! Now the bimbo has to learn about alkl these centino lah... web cam lah... antivirus lah... haha... IT'S ABOUT TIME!!!

2006-03-01T08:48:00.000+08:00

Geek in the PInk!

Jason Mraz's new song has got me hooked. I love the video so cute him just dancing around making a fool of himself. I do that sometimes pple say i'm sorry oh well this song has given the extra drive to do it more! haha... Today me got stomachache... ponteng work! haha... real ah! Niwae, nothing much to update. Planning for a weekend getaway to wherever! woo hoo! siaper nak join! haha...

2006-02-18T08:23:00.000+08:00

Nothing much

What do you do when your dreams have been otained? What do you do when even though the dream isn't that perfect but you got it in the end? I've got a job, a lovely Boyfriend, although he can be a tad bit irritating at times *grins*, a great family and awesome friends. But yet,I'm leaving. Why sheereen? Oh well, pple have to do extreme things to satisfy themselves. This is my satisfaction I guess. The initial break of news was of course sadness that i'll be leaving my great life here but work has been shitty and it only makes me wanna leave more. Am i being a meany? Hopefully, i'll have time to visit my darlings here in Singapore. Aku gi sorang, I come back maybe pple won't even care about me! haha... Don't forget me!!! PLEASE!!!

Haha... Dad jus gave me a passport cover... Step my first gift before you go... abih free gift! Kwang! Kwang! Kwang!

2006-02-04T20:08:00.000+08:00

Backstreet Boys....

Backstreet Boys... So many of my friends have said to me: "lame siak sheereen!" "Kentalnya! Tgk backstreet Boys!!" "Diorang dah Tak boys lagi lah!" "Bodoh! $160 kau spend?" All i can say is aku nyer pasal ah! You don't know how much they mean to me and how much my life was affected by them. Heck, u dun even know me if u dun understand why i did what i did. I got to see the things that i only got to see through the videos that I bought... yes i bought evry single one of them. I got to see the whole dance move nick makes when he sings "Am i sexual?" (Backstreet's Back) the move where he touched his crotch... I got to see the famous dance move of hand over brow, hand over brow movement in larger than life... Best of all nick was 10 m in front of me... All i can say is i'm don't think I'll be the sheereen you all know and love them without the Backstreet Boys... thank you guys!

2006-01-22T23:41:00.000+08:00

Public display of Attention?

"You are not any better..."

PDA what is that? Public display of Affection or Public display of Attention. Borak lah kan kalau orang cakap tak pernah kiss of hug in public... but what is the limit that you can take? ok maybe when you're in it you dun notice it. But pernah tak you are the solo one and your fren hug hug gitu... listening to what you are saying but while listening to ur stories. Dunno ah... Mcm kalau dengan bf macam lain tahu.... i know pple will kena kan me the above phrase tapi still this time, i shall make it a point to make it uncomfortable for anyone... kan mcm tak best kan? is it one of the hints to ask the person to go away? haiz.... ok lor... i think i talk this topic also so the stupid... but i shall take the hint and go sleep.... salah besok2 makan burger ader mayo kat pipi... :p

2006-01-20T23:25:00.000+08:00

Where i am now.....

... Hello... long time no bloggy... haha... niwae... dulu frust sekarang macam haha... ok i guess. Satisfied. You are reading the blog of the new sales and reservations Agent of grand Copthorne Waterfront Hotel.... haha... yes i finally got a job my dear frens... I guess it's a mixed emotions feeling that i get... i never wanted to have a 9-5 job... But i've got one. and so what? every1 has almost evryone has been doing that mah? haiz... oh well... I jus signed my contract... now i'm on probation with a really small pay... haiz... oh well, at least i won't be groaning and complaining. I'm actually doing and learning somethin... thanks Shasha! first pay gua belanja lu ah! haha... niwaes... I'm at peace of mind i guess rite now...

But... i do miss my dearest Adib... he is off to field camp tomoro and the sucky thing is i'm gonna be wrkg alternate sats and evrytime he book out I'm wrk... MONKEY CRAP! hehe....

Take care ok baby? I'll see you on

FRIDAY!!!!

2006-01-11T16:58:00.000+08:00

Frust geng!
alah... only god knows the ooutrageous frustration i feel. When is enough, enough? brape banyak cabaran dioragn nak cmapak kat aku ni. It's been 4 times i tried... still "Thank you... try again!" ingat ape? It's like again you level up but there is no continue... start from beginning... Why should i go through this stupid rejections and ridicules time and time again... Sometimes i think i'm fucking stupid to try again... Sometimes I think they ARE STUPID! Then... diorang still make money what... They still have ugly girls up there in the sky what? Am i that bad? Am i so horrible? Ya... never was the hot girls guys go for ah... But how many times are you gonna trample my ego? How many times are you gonna make me waste $8 on the cab fare? How many times are u gonna put my body through the lack of food, tremendous amounts of stress and all the fake nice to meet yous? Fuck lah!!! senang kata i'm 21... i may not need you anymore... NICE TO MEET YOU AND BYE!

2006-01-06T12:05:00.000+08:00

My Gals...

these two are my girlfrens... haha.... I really am amazed at the dynamics of our relationship among one another. I dun seem to spend every single moment with them yet when i meet up with them I can never get enough of them. as quoted by Az "don't think you'd answer my calls at 4 am in the morning" haha... as i said the dynamics of our relationship really amazes me... Az is very arty farty... super talented this woman and Nat's jus a plain nerd... and me oh well... it's just that we click all the time.... even though we've been through many different degrees of pain or triumphs and wat nots but there's always a common gropund. We may not know every single detail about each other like bra size and crap (yes you two... i know I'm the tiniest of the lot) but it's just the way we are... we know about each other at a comfortable level that needs no details. Yea... i love them in a lot... haha... they jus really crack me up... although i'm always the victim of their ridicule.... but i believe that they've made me who i am now... thanks guys!

2005-12-28T07:09:00.000+08:00

Forced Entry
Crude title but the heck... My dear boyfren has requested... wish granted sayang...

I love this picture so the very much... my boyfren is the one in black... and in a few weeks time he will look like the one in white... Wait... he's already like that! hehe... sayang dier... HE is off to NS and here i am stuck in front of my PC making a blog entry about him... What's special about this guy? He knows when to make me laugh and when to get down to business. He knows when to surpirse me with the sweetest little things... He knows me... my thoughts... feelings... he's just overall someone u can hug and and never feel empty.... Maybe cos he's buncit you say... but it's more than that.... I love him so much can't wait for Saturday.... OOOK... enough of the mushy stuffs... HMKT pics uploaded dudes.... 3 more days and counting BABY!!!

2005-12-25T11:51:00.000+08:00

Dah habis.....
Dun you just hate it when good things end... yes... I'm talking about Horlick Milo Kopi Teh... Entah why like so sad like that... I will miss:

Ajit's stupid sex stories
Painah's interesting and oh so elaborate stories
Shasha and mine's girl talk
Asking pple many many questions
Ajit's chasing after painah jokes
D and MeL
D's stories backstage....
The rides with east side group home to explore lorongs... haha
The discussions in D's car with the east side group
Abg anwar's lame jokes will take a long time to get it out of my system
Abg anwar and my lame attempts of being "scandal"
"UPSIZE!!!"
"Lame siak Apit....."
Haz trying to seduce me with her Siti character.... EEEEEEWWWWW!!!
Changing the number of tickets i order from Suhaila
Irritating Nenek Akmar

Too many many things to miss... Was an honor to work under Abang anwar... Only god knows how much i admire ur talent... Thanks for picking me abg anwar... I really appreciate the opportunity.... Thanks to D... Apit... Ajit... Shasha... Haz... Painah.... Suhaila... Nek akmar.... Gee... You guys will definitely be missed....

2005-12-25T11:42:00.000+08:00

Weird stuffs...
Rules of the game:
Post 5 weird/random things about yourself.
At the end, list the names of 5 ppl who you want next to do this and leave a comment "YOU ARE TAGGED" in their blogs and tell them to read your blog for rules!

1) I fall for weird guys who have a lame sense of humor or try to act cool when they actually are cool jus for being themselves... dun get me look at adib... haha

2) I fell into the drain after being pushed by a finger.... Siaper terasa: The embrassment still remains... ouchy!

3) I have a really bass voice. Not surpirising to pple who really know me. But I find it weird ah... Guys who talk to me for the first time get freaked out sometimes... Oh well...

4) I'm a big fan of the backstreet boys!!! lu ader hal ke?

5) I can't cry when i want to as in act to cry... really wish i could though... oh someone please teach me... BOO HOO HOO....

5 pple ah? Farhan42, D, Abg Anwar, Shasha and Bedah (actually any update from Bedah will be good) haha....

2005-12-19T16:08:00.000+08:00

Ni mesti Sheereen...
Sometimes i think I open all my blog entries wit an action... haha lah... sigh lah... merepek kan? ok... i really like getting to know pple. I really like to ask evrything about that person... Dun let it be a one way traffic. Paling boring kalau mcm gitu... u ask a qn the person jus answers u and keep quiet. Bak kata abg anwar ( u must be wondering why evry blog entry ader nama abg anwar... I also dunno...) an interesting script is one that has many questions. So one after another... so there's a flow ah. And if there's a topic yang hangat... I love it when evryone participates... and the more honest you are the more interesting u will appear to me... So kat TK I ask many questions and get many answers some i dun agree on and some that really opens my eyes. Colourful lah casts of HMKT... So i guess pple can say i'm KPO.. and i guess i am... if KPO makes evryone get to know one another better I'm glad to be called one... haha... selenge betul ah... HMKT is coming to show day soon... many many things and issues has been brought up by many many pple... I dun really haf many things to say... bukan no feelings cuma... entah... i look on the good stuffs that this proj has brought upon. But i wanna be more productive... tinggal brape hari lagi... this makcik kpo will do wrk... anyway... I'M NOT WORKING THIS WEEK!!!!! BEST!!! nanti no money will die... *toot* lah!

2005-12-13T12:29:00.001+08:00

Countdown...

It'll be 3 more days till i see Adib... miss him many many
It'll be 10 more days till first show... nervous as hell
It'll be 17 more days till new years.... it's been almost a year since i've graduated... holy crap...

Things to look forward to? I guess... Jus really nervous about the show. The videos are wonderful. Abang Anwar did a wonderful job. Really admire this talented guy. As wat I always say.. "Nak jadi mcm Abang Anwar... " hehe... Oh well, dunno why before i go to trg must have this nervous sick butterfly in the stomach feeling. Nervous ke? Excited ke? ape ke? Haiz... D, helps me a lot... Cik Atin also... Ni lah kan... actress who needs a lot work... semua orang dier tarik... Kental...

Other than that i'm really looking forward to the show... and seeing my buncit... kesian dia kat dalam... 2 more days sayang!! hehe....

2005-12-04T23:25:00.000+08:00

http://horlickmilokopiteh.blogspot.com/

Check it out!!!

2005-11-29T07:58:00.000+08:00

Shidah's entry
This was inspired by shidah's entry of NS boys. I agree with her that they change when they go to NS. It's like someone told them to be mean to their girlfrens and make their life miserable or something like dat. Brainwash them! I went through these with farhan. So now my dearest Adib is going to NS and so sedih... so message for my sayang:

Don't make my life miserable and i won't do the same for you :P

I'm going to miss you and you know that

You take very good care of yourself

Love you many many...

But my boyfriend is matured and gets over things really fast. So we'll just laugh and eat as what we always do when you come out ok? hehe... jus get it over and done with so you can start on what you wanna do.... ok recruit adib? hehe.....

2005-11-28T08:00:00.000+08:00

Believe Me

I guessThat this is where we've come to

If you don't want to

Then you don't have toBelieve me

But IWon't be there when you go down

Just so you know now

You're on your own nowBelieve me

Fort minor- Believe Me

Lagu favourite of the moment! gerekz... haha... It's only days till horlick milo kopi teh... and Mel is suffering. Self reflection, i'm not a good actress. But I'm willing to work. But it gets boring when u see pple get their characters immediately. Example, Apit... I'm not jealous, just admiration. He is freaking good lah. I on the other hand, am very difficult. I need lotsa attention, i need to work really hard. Tired of that ah, for pple to actually waste their time on me for me to get it. crave for the day when i can do it like Apit or abg anwar... Haiz... Nope i'm not gonna give up yet... Abg anwar hasn't given up on me... (I hope) Rehersals are great! really looking forward to everything taking shape... Hopefully i too will be in shape.

HORLICK MILO KOPI TEH

Tengoklah!!! Watch watch!!!

4 guys exploring the world of relationships.

Will they succeed in love?

Dan soalan cliche:

Biler mau kahwin?!

for tix jus give me a call...

23rd Dec 8pm

24th Dec 3pm and 8 pm

See ya!

Sekarang bak kata ST: tido pasal penat kerja, bangun pun pasal kerja... :P gd day!

(kawan2, gambar sudah di upload to my comp... nanti upload to photobucket... got something wrong with the site... Kita minum dulu!!!)

2005-11-14T14:30:00.000+08:00

Share my world
This must be the world's most boring blog. Haha...inconsistent updates... haha... I jus wanna tell everyone that I'm really happy... despite the fact that i dun haf a job or a driving license... I'm jus happy. I'm like doing acting stuff, watching tv at home, eat watever i want (when i haf money at least!hehe), oh yah... and the company's great too... hehe... Posing as students getting offers and stuff... going for plays that i wnat to go. If only if i had more money... But meeting up wit pple who haf moved on is great too. Titi's off in dubai, nif and zad are in tekong... but nothin changes between us. I've got a new year's resolution not to complain so much. Cos i feel like i do that too much sometimes... isn't this me complaining again? Today got trg again! meet up wit the horlick milo kopi teh crew... yey!!! Raya is fun but different this year... LAST YEAR DAPAT DUIT COLLECTION BEB!!! nxt yr pemberi duit... haiya.. ni semua ikhlas hor? haha.... oklah... wait tilll like a long time again... haha

2005-10-28T00:11:00.000+08:00

Wat's up?
Wat's up with pple and being rich and not having good morals? Wat's up with pple living a modern life and not be appreciative of religion and rules and regulation? Wat's up with me being so offended by people's lives? I wish i wasn't so affected but i am. Sedih kan? When i was in madrasah, i used to hate it when my ustadz/ustadzah say that when a person is rich akhlak dia tak bagus. So what? are u telling me to not be rich and successful? forever work as mcm kais pagi makan pagi? Tapi some pple prove this theory rite ah... eh, u were poor one time u know. Unless u were born in golden diapers ah. for the second qns... Eh! Puasa ah! stop making excuses! that's the whole point of puasa, fight temptations. u eat, haf sex, drink and smoke for 300 days a yr, puasa 30 days tak leh? TEMPTATION.... faham tak? who am i to preach? alah, i've said my peace... ur life ah eh! why am i so affected? i haf no idea... as far as i know i'm happy... could haf more money though! hehe... raya nak dtg... saham harap2 naik lah ye? :P

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!!

2005-10-16T11:08:00.000+08:00

Updates

Kelab dangdut sudah habis lor... sekarang wah byk gemuk haha... dah tak joget byk byk... dah tak exercise... tak climb the bukit to cairnhill haha... but tetap asyik... i think i enjoyed it more than i expected. Thank each and evryone of u....

Thanks.........

Sungguh gelap NS boy number 1 ni... tapi tetap sayang dier... hehe...

NS boy number 2... mana kau hilang? call tak angkat... sms tak reply... gua miss sama lu ah!

I went for Az's and b-day thing ah... tapi takde grp photo... any generous pple nak passing kat aku... i terima with open arms...

So wat's up with sheereen you might say... I love this bulan puasa... I jus love bulan puasa ah but that's besides the point. Although the fahmy household has very non-traditional buka(s) this yr... it makes us appreciate the time we share more. I'm wrkg malam and when tak kerja malam me go rehersal. and my mum pun wrk frm 4-9 so miss buka... haiz... but that leads me to another pt that I've jus got a part in Horlicks milo kopi teh... YEY!! hehe... sungguh terharu... sungguh excited... Still in the beginning stages but it will be damn gerek ah... ngan abg anwar... jealous tak fana? haha... tak ah... jumpa Kawan2 Tk yet again.... Interesting smaller grp... a chance to learn more and I love it... Yeah... Asyik! I've also got more news... I've gotten a step closer to sumthin I've always wanted so yea!!! kalau lu mau tau... tanyer... akan ku jawab... :P .... i miss everyone... Hanif... Shaz... Nik.. Farhan... Nat... Az... SEMUA ah!!! too many to mention.... haiz...

2005-09-17T10:04:00.000+08:00

Jus me
I never meant to hurt you... I never said i never loved you... I never said i did it for someone else... i never said i never cared.... But all these things i didn't say to you has made you doubt our 20 months. And you doubting me, has made myself doubt our relationship. I admit, maybe i did it out of my own selfishness... never tot about you... But I keep telling myself it isn't like that... It hurts when i try to explain myself cos i turn out the jerk either way... It hurts trying to make u understand cos i know nothing can change your mind.... I guess all i need is time.... u need it too... think whatever you wanna think, cos i don't think i can change your mind and that hurts... I hope Allah s.w.t. will be your guide, i hope you'll find someone else better than i ... i treated you like crap and i know it hurts... I am the bitch... i'm sorry....

2005-09-05T11:28:00.000+08:00

Yey!!!
How can something so wrong feel so right?

yey!!! kita menang seh best script... very proud... takkan nak bolot semua award kan... Tapi the one i sought out for, i got... so i'm very happy. Thank you for working so well with me fana, bedah and sayang... it was great while it lasted. I learnt many many things... I loved the sri falsafah story... loved it so the much... congrats on persembahan terbaik... it was tough competition. Ezriel was superb.... So much energy... jus 1 word... "WOW!" hehe.... hope to see more of your work. Woo hoo... i miss you already... This is my first time getting anything with titisan and i'm so proud. It's like doing something for such a long time and actually attaining a reward... I guess peserverance really does pay off. And if i peservere i will receive. Jus hope i receive it faster. AHah... congrats to bedah... u've got so much potential... u jus underestimate urself... kau... pelakon wanita terbaik seh... So happy for u... u truly deserve it... Do NOT let your talent go to waste you hear me!! I'll kill you if u do... u left us once will NOT let u leave again!

Thanks az and nat... i love you guys many many... it's getting harder every minute... confused as ever... but thanks for jus listening and ur opinions really matter a lot to me...

How can something so wrong feel so right........................

2005-09-02T10:13:00.000+08:00

Yesterday
I've realised that i have done too much reflecting and very the little of wat I've been doing. Basically cos i dun really like updates as such but hey... jus a try. I woke up early in the morning feeling guilty becos i was supposed to meet farhan for his appt and i totally forgot abt it. Slept late the nite b4. Freaking bad gf i am... And to make matters worst, it was our mthsary. I'm so sorry syg. We shld really haf time alone, there's so many things i wanna say, so many things we haven't said in a long time. Saturday is our day. Ended going shopping for slutty clothes for Kelab dangdut with my mum at geylang... managed to get slutty clothes which wasn't that bad to wear aft the production... i like! haha... then went off to wrk super duper early... reached at like 4 plus start wrk kul 6. Hoping that i wld end up finishing wrk at 10 but couldn't. Had to rush off for filming ah. Was assured by Adib that CIk Atin wasn't angry... sorry many2 evryone who waited for me. Really sorry... unavoidable ah... then shooting... was wearing my slutty shirt and oh so short skirt that farhan hates.... :( hopefully it doesn't ride up when tgh dancing!!! hahah.... it was fun... got to act as a drunk so no big deal there... use my tired state and enhance it more... so it was cool. Then went near bugis village and shoot the other scenes. Off to bencoolen to drink and was driven by a lady who said the acting "banyak real ah!" haha... it was really great. Then abg den hantar balik... washed my face twice! haha... get all the make up off... then sleep sweet sleep. :P Busy busy busy... today me wrk.... yok! makan kat fish and co! Besok... bandusa ah eh? best script dok... (fana, bedah and farhan must be rolling their eyes abt now) positive ah beb.... But i know we won't win ah.... the other grps are awesome! good job dudes.... Gd luck A2, falsafah, mdm sherry grp, peti grp and farhan/farhanah! forgot your names lor.... sorry hor....

2005-09-01T00:37:00.000+08:00

People
Sometimes pple do things that u don't agree. Yes you have an opinion, u say your views. Is that considered gossip? then how do you learn from mistakes? To avoid getting into the same trouble as the person. So if u talk about a person's achievements, is that gossip? ya... jgn burukkan org. Then till when are u gonna tell ur fren if u know that the certain someone is bad company. Sampai dia dah kena? dah terlambat kan? so honestly, wat is considered good gossip or wat is considered bad gossip? is there such things as either? haiz.. sometimes i feel we shouldn't have mouths... prevent from any dosa caused... takleh makan atau minum benda haram dan takleh cakap atau gossip.... peace shall be in the world. so talk less.... and the world shall be a good place for evryone....

2005-08-27T13:56:00.000+08:00

period for ladies
gentlemen please be considerate to us during our periods. Understand that we do not mean what we sway sometimes and sometimes act out of character. We apologise. We feel weak and jus don't want to do anything at all. It's tiring to stand and be bleeding down there. At times it hurts in no way possible. So beg for consideration of this woman in her period. Even this blog entry is out of character. haha... BLAME IT ON THE PERIOD!

2005-08-13T02:45:00.000+08:00

Lelaki semua sama
haha. jus blog hopped to abg den's blog... Very funny... cos he put himself in a girl's position. How girls can get away with scandals easily by saying dier yg mati2 ajak keluar or sumthin like that. Interesting, itu tip nombor 1 ah... haha... to all thinking of having a scandal... guys will believe u! haha... to me... bongok sangat ke the guy? sekadar excuse pun... I think lame ah... haha.. but very interesting seh bang den... is it easier to be a guy or be a girl? very the subjective hor? which haf u heard more? "lelaki semua samer..." or "perempuan semua samer.." characteristics of most guys: Gatal... suka pretty stuff... tapi ultimately... gatal. Characteristics of most girls: Gatal ... sensitive and ... gatal same mah? But to me i think girl nyer gatal eh, is like testing ur patience gatal. trying their luck. Make up... to look good? for ur bf? for other guys? for them to stare at ur boyfren with pure jealousy? pernah nampak this girl, wearing lacy underwear and a tube jln mcm action ah ngan dier bf ah. and i was walking with my dear bf and bopley.... aper lagi, dua2 mcm nak ngap... then wat's the point rite? tak ke gatal tu? women is the route of all evil! ahaha... sorry to the women race for the let down... but my tom boy side has taken over. sometimes tak leh angkat ah dgn gelagat girls.

2005-08-08T11:29:00.000+08:00

Long awaited
The pics are finally uploaded... click on the keys then photobucket to see the rest of the pics... here are some for ur perusal...

Fishy peeps out to play at hard rock!!

Fishy peeps out to play at hard rock 2!!

miss this nyonya...

And... the graduation pics!!! lihat lihat... look look...

proud mummy and daddy

The man i started my journey with... Luv him loads... gonna miss this NS boy!

And then there were five.... :P

2005-08-04T23:59:00.000+08:00

Hey hey
Jus gonna do a simple update about what i've been doing the pass few days.Benn really broke with miserly intentions in my mind. It's so painful to even take a bus these days. Gone were the days of concession stamps. I think the problem with me is that i'm dwelling in the past! haha... but now leaving in the present. EZ link matters. Anyone agrees that almost 1/5 your pay check goes to EZ link? Irritating kan. I'd rather walk than take a bus. So the sedih one. Jus gotta let my frustrations out. so if u ask me out, better be prepared for malas ah... cos no money for transport!!! haha... ok nites!

2005-08-01T13:10:00.000+08:00

back
last posting on the 10th... woo hoo... my comp has gone totally bonkers since then. Haha... Graduation was fun. and i actually have done it. Poly. It may not be big. but man... was it a struggle. Yah, it's nothing compared to a degree. but still it's sumthing. At least that's what i think. And many pple are asking what am i doing wasting time. Freak lah... I too am angry... But haiz... on a lighter note, I've done many many theatre stuff... step terror je... nah... jus helping the titisan peeps and also teater kami. and i've taken up a script writing workshop which is excellent and yeah, we've done a great job fana, bedah and my syg. It's a super fun thing... today will be my final theory and i think i'll fail. But nvm ah... jus try and see if i can do it! haha... oklah... wanna study a bit.

2005-07-10T10:05:00.000+08:00

wrked all week
Interesting week this week... wrked the evening shift except sat which was quite a relief. Met very interesting pple... i met one of my customers who found it funny to say Sharkie freeze... she kept giggling when she said it made all friends too. Met lotsa stewardesses. The work place is always a buzz when they present their pass to get a discount. haha... everyone will want to check her out. So aristi be prepared for that i guess. haha.... congrats to titi for making it. really happy for you. You got what you've been wanting. Sad sept for me.... a sadder oct cos farhan's gonna be outstation... haiz...

2005-07-05T15:10:00.000+08:00

forever mine
being at home has allowed me to:

Gain tonnes of weight
Increase my electricity bills
watch low budget films from 1-3

hehe... wat a life rite? haha... the low budget films are sometimes interesting but mostly very scandalous... It's mostly about love... Psycho people... affairs.... affairs is something interesting. Everyone loves scandal. But do u ever think that u will be swept by love uncontrollably to actually throw something like marriage out the window. And if the guy is hot and really sweet, u'll be on the hero's side rite? But in real life, if someone plays "the other" person the whole commitee would shun him/her? am i making sense? well i guess u get where i at. Jus watched a lame ass scandalous show... which is cheesily titled "forever mine". hehe... and the "other" person is super hot... ahahaha.... postings getting a little merepek these days... find me a job!!!

2005-07-01T11:52:00.000+08:00

My bf and stuff
hello again... today's my mthsary that means I've been wit Farhan for about 18 months. He is not the perfect guy but he strives to please me everyday. He's very sensitive but he tries to change for me and i love that about him. He cares for me a lot and loves me loads. So i'm happy to have him in my life. I also haf this cheeky thingee... checking out cute guys and stuff but he always ignores it. So i love him loads... thanks sayang! Anyway, why must Taufik share his fame with all the other 11 idol finalists... Do u ever notice it? It's stupid... he is our idol... no one cares about the rest so why can't u haf a show for taufik himself? Aper Taufik can't do it? Diorang semua ader contract aper? lagi baik jgn ader s'pore idol winner kan? The final 12 are the winners... woo hoo! Can't wait for the Next idol... I love Ass like that by eminem... and triumph is an ass.. haha...

2005-06-29T16:35:00.000+08:00

New blog... new chemical romance theme... Wtached impenjarament courtesy of Amin... thanks dude... Niwae, I am not much of a critic the only ones that i can critic on is the work i've done with titisan Temasek. Cos there's so much we haf to learn... But nonetheless i truly enjoyed myself... Imagine, will you hire an ex-con? It's bad enough to get fired and to find another job. To those who answered yes... pls think again. I mean here we are trying to get recommended, maintainin the unspoilt image, and these ex cons haf to compete with us. So I really loved the show, and will type more soon. very irritated with my mouse rite... Get the cat to eat him up!

2005-06-21T10:22:00.000+08:00

first million
Always crave for the day that i get my first million and that my huisband to be has got to earn his first million first before we get married. It's not that i'm materialistic but i guess security is what i want. It's not the only condition, i also will want my firs million b4 i marry. Dunno how i'm gonna get it but i hope to achieve it ah. I guess the reason why i'm like this is cos I'm tired of seeing my parents be so hunt down for everythin, bills and what nots. But am i so sure my life's not gonna be like that? haiz... only time will tell...
By the way, farhan and i are fine... Jus got through the rough week... thanks for all the advice... even helzie!

2005-06-16T02:51:00.000+08:00

bright lights: party
Had the fish and co staff party yday. It's funny how u see pple act differently when they go to clubs. They drink they let loose they dance like mad dogs. when in real life... They are so shy or act cool. When in true fact it's jus super loud music with lots of pple mushed together. I'm not much of a clubber but somehow it's exciting. So is it exciting cos it's wrong? Or jus becos it's plain fun. Seriously, girls hugging guys... Guys getting somewhere with a girl even if in real life they won't even get close. It's jus funny. some peeps got pissed drunk... which was funny. and haha... peeps get this... some of my colleagues tot i was drunk. haha... me? my dearest and closest frens, i haf never and will never intend to drink. well till that days comes, rest assure u I will detest it. bismillah... only drank refreshing glasses of ice water. It was weird to see different peeps at their drunkard points. one lies flat on the floor which when she's sober will never do it ever again. One was carried by her bf on the shoulder in the most awful way. One was puking on pple who haf tried to help her. one screaming at the top of their lungs. One walking ard refraining from sitting down so that he won't puke. kelakar ah... So if drinking brings out the ugly side of them, why drink? cool ah? accepted to society? westernised? haiya... this is my stand on drinking.... Jus find me one reason the goodness of drinking... and if it's justified with no repercussions... u might jus change my mind.

2005-06-12T12:03:00.000+08:00

Blogging:
What's the point of having a blog and not actually say what u want to say? So here it goes... I'm not at the happiest of moods in my relationship currently. It's been rough, he's been sensitive and I've been making lots of friends. We talked about it but like somthing's missing. Syg if u're reading this, I'm just saying wat i really feel. And i'm sorry if i hurt you. relationships are breaking apart left and right... met up with 2 of my frens yday and guess what... single... both... 2 peeps who are so in love with their respective partners have broken up. It's scary yet if we're fated it shouldn't be a problem. We'll work this out... haiz... there i've said it. Song recommendation and a little sign of hope to those who have loved and lost time and time again...

God bless the broken road- Rascal flatts
I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love
Along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign
Pointed straight to you

Every long lost dream
Led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart
They were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way
Into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent
Just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost
And give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan
That is coming true

Every long lost dream
Led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart
They were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way
Into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

Now I’m just rolling home
Into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

Yes it the song that carrie sand on the american idol finale. Boo... Carrie!!

2005-06-11T00:43:00.000+08:00

high...
haha... today i had a show at taman warisan with teater kami...yes i can hear the u... sheereen budak teater siak... Yes ah! so happy... I'm happy to be part of such a wonderful show... super friendly pple and fun... Thanks Abg anwar! Thanks to everyone for making my week a memorable one... and it's so fun to be a soundwoman... tapikan... dah lamer seh tak act.... rindu... haha... but u guys are super talented and i thank u for ur guidance and patience... bak kata kak sheba... relax, focus, enjoy... haha... thanks again!

2005-06-03T11:40:00.000+08:00

I'm not O-fucking-K!
I'm so obsessed with My Chemical Romance!!!! No prizes for guessing wat's my new blogskin gonna be themed!!!

2005-06-02T01:02:00.000+08:00

Memories
Today I went back to TP yet again... i feel like I have yet to leave the school... But hey It was fun... I found a person to be cuter than i expected... haha... Wrk was tiring but it was kinda cool... So amusing... Titi was supposed to sleepover at my house tonite but apparently her mum tak kasi cos she's been out too many times... haha... Padan muka Anyway, next time then dude. but since my room was in a mess, I did some spring cleaning which led to a lot of setting adrift on memory bliss. totally funny stuff like autograph books and diaries. It's funny cos back at the time, I was a REALLY big fan of the Backstreet Boys. And i still consider myself as one. Jus can't let it go! NICKY! haha... And pple wrote in my autograph book and stuck pics of nick, aj, brian, howie and kevin. A LOT! Lame... but it was totally cool last time. I even had nick names with regard to my darling Nick. Such a loser. Then i think abt the money i spend on the magazines and the chasing of boybands (Yes, I was a boyband chaser... hearty harhar Malu nyer...) I guess what was funny was, how i could ever write other pple's autographs with unnecessary info that they dun even give a shit abt now. Heck! Half the pple in my autograph bk dun even live at the same place! haha... So I feel really paiseh now... To my sec sch frens and pri sch frens... I'm sorry for wasting pages in ur bk with stupid nonsensical things like fave actor or even Rank of friends freaking childish ah! Haiya... but haha... imagine if i ranked my frens now... Hmmm.... Myself! haha... I guess there's a reason why we stop this sort of things... makes u too self absorbed! :P nites!

2005-05-30T09:05:00.000+08:00

Work
am i gonna be like abg anwar? hehe.... not wrkg for two years. But at least he had a reason... to pursue theatre... wat abt me? hehe... i would love to do dat but nothing has come through yet... and well I haven't been looking. Neither haf i started to look for a job... a proper one. A career. I've been pining for a particular one but if wat if i don't get it? then what? pine till when? haiz... god will lead me to my calling... asal boleh shoot je. Supposed to go out wit me ever beloved sec sch frens and be graced by the presence of my long lost fren Norish (not that she was on missing or anything, u catch my drift). But yet again we were dissappointed. She cancelled. I'm like sad and angry. Haiz... I dunno what's going on Norish, but u can always call us. We've been trying to hang out with u since god knows when... Are u alrite? Dun u wanna see us anymore? Are u that busy? I guess... i'm just too disappointed. On another note, went to watch the khatulistiwa... I like to watch these school comps cos i get to see that marsling sec dude... but that's besides the point... ah it's nice ah... and again SP and ITE tamp has beaten PST... why ah? They did a great job but still... haiz... not their luck... But congrats to Mamat for that Juara Harapan thing... And to Nira congrats for that kumpulan wanita terbaik! TP oi!! Dun get me started... ok... adios amigos...

2005-05-27T12:58:00.000+08:00

School has started
Hahah... back to school already dudes? hehe.... Haf fun with the tutorials and lectures and 8AMs!! hehe... but hey i would go back to school in a second! I miss school.. enough of that mushy stuff... It's interesting to see how much i've changed over the times from when I first started out erk at fish and co. There were a bunch of new kids at wrk and yeah haf to guide them and evrything so it was quite funny. Things you take forgranted cos u are so used to doing evrything that u assume that they will know... haha... So cool... The newbies are a bit slow but i guess everyone is like that at first... Heck! I was freaking lazy to start with. Guess the bottom line is tat we haf to start somewhere even if it was a slow one. sheereen very sick now... Sneezing and colds... bodyaches... see ya!

2005-05-19T09:11:00.000+08:00

Rip Off!!!
I went to watch The Amityville horror wit Nif, der, zad and Reen the day after I watched Coach Carter. (Freaking expensive!!!) Choose your movies wisely... Bring me to the land of pirates!!! eh no joke lah... weekend $9.50 and i earn a what? $5 an hr! kerja 2 jam... dapat tgk 2 jam worth of show... lagi baik kerja... if the show is great... I dun mind... but if it's a crappy show... regretful! Coach Carter been wanting to watch this movie for a long time. What a GREAT movie... yah... grp of black kids, yea... washed up dun give a shit abt sch... yah... someone will get shot... DUH... same old same old... But still you love to watch these inspirational shows... I still find myself cheering for the team even if it's jus a movie and it has already happened. Mum's irritating me... Wish i could fly away!

2005-05-18T02:00:00.000+08:00

Schools done
I cried on Pentas day... yes sheereen gembeng... haha... but i cried becos i love this... performing... not that I'm good or anything but i just love it. And i went for my first interview and i screwed up... haiz... nervousness always get to me. Very soon the boys will be off tp NS and titi will be starting her career... haiz... what am i gonna do? hehe... ah... but seriously I'm quite happy where i am... it's like for the first time... i can make money... haha... but i spent money so easily... what more with the increase in movie prices sheesh!!! Go piracy! haha... so will support them! haiyo... I want my rob thomas CD! and a short denim skirt... and smaller thighs... ooops... too much details... oh well... life's not that great after all eh? haha... i miss titisan peeps... bank robbers and my locker... haha....

2005-04-24T03:44:00.000+08:00

rasa
today fana mentioned, hopefully no one cry atau marah during this production. Ingat suka suka ke nangis. Sometimes you jus love something so much and hold it so dear to your heart that u jus dun prepare for the fall of it.Let me reflect on my roller coster of emotions thorugh out my whole journey wit Titisan.

One plus one: haiyo... this one ah... very the malu one... Nak tahu asal? I was like the newbie ah... dun even noe why I join... haha... mungkin pasal revenge and mungkin pasal I haf to do something i love in my life. Which was great... didn't really noe anyone there... Was quiet half the time. But it was fun ah... the end product jus made me thriving for more. Some one in the production asked azlina and i if we would stay on aft this... yeah, did u get my answer? haha...

Pentas Pujangga: haha... first acting role... as kucing yg... pandai silat dan super CUTE! haha... bedah I'm still cuter than you... Niwae, this was.... wow... I was pushed super hard... insulted... rehearsed over and over... they gave me a freaking angry role that I'm never angry then marah marah at me to make me marah... haiyo... sampai rehearse dalam toilet ah! tonation trg with fid and sid... wah... then kalah... tapi belajar silat...

Boneka warrior: very sad ah this one... all the actors weren'tcommitted... not really into the story... byk main... basically bcos... we didn't comprehend the story... which resulted in the show being a flop... which resulted in lotsa tears... Basically was dealing with pple leaing that made me super sad... it was a really sad period... but hey i managed... oh yah... got the stage manager gig here... :P boleh mati...

Oh Temasek...: Thanks to abang anwar... helped a lot... I was again stage manager... strictly no acting... haiyo yo yo... This one had to train the newbies... in like a short time... had to find replacements cos pple walk out for no freaking reason... super emo pple... Very tiring.... learnt a lot of things from this production... serious ah...

AIR OREN!!: Paling best... paling mengarut... Plaing happening... no stress... super fun... I LOVE IT!

Pentas 2005:......?.......

So i guess what i;'m trying to say...aku ni robot ke pe? haha...some pple jus quit after the pressure... menghilangkan diri... then there are still pple who stay... and relly respect ah eh... cos i dunno many challenges i've had in the 2 years. And if u jus started... be prepared cos it's a real rollercoster... can feel the pressure at one time and giving the pressure the next... Sheen cakap mcm paham je...eh... my blog... my rules! nite nite dudes!

2005-04-18T10:23:00.001+08:00

Expectations
I keep telling myself, no expectations, no disappointments... So when you want somthing and you go for it... kirakan try-try ah... then u say the above saying, are u really, truly not expecting anything? Lu rilek sua... Sampai masa nyer you will be disappointed also... it's jus a matter of how big or small this impact is... Disappointment, yeah that's how i feel. SOmthings are jus not justified sumtimes and you jus dun haf anyone to turn to. I mean yeah, frens and family try to console you but the bottom line is you're not good enough. Trying my very best to make sense out of the situation but that's the raw truth. But hey, still holding up that happy,cheery smile and make evryone else happy... Pentas is on the way, yeah didn't get an acting role but i suspect i'll be quite busy... oooh wee! Nadi shirt aku nak chope satu! haha... then my bf is away for 2 weeks... Sent him off yesterday. Last few moments he went like "I'm going to miss you, you're already missing me already rite" Aper tak? wah... dah sedih semcm seh.Then when i turn ard i saw this guy leave his gf and the gf wiping tears from her eyes... kau... cannot control liao! maintain... haiz... thankfully i reached home without any tears shed... but jalan ah eh... like so draggy... so sad ah... I'm going to miss him a lot! so siaper siaper boring... callling calling ah eh. busted seh dah takde bf baru nak cari kawan... u know i know i'm not like that... ok going off to the Gym... MMMWAH!

2005-04-18T10:23:00.000+08:00

2005-04-15T01:20:00.000+08:00

POSTER's out! tunggu aper lagi? Wat u waiting for? Bakal aku takleh cakap cina and tamil! Call me for Tix if u want... or even better go OSC for TP students! Niwae... working on my marketing skills... haha!!!

2005-04-11T13:15:00.000+08:00

Graduate
haha!!! Sheereen dah graduate seh/// belanjaed the tits peeps pizza 75% ah... haha.. up punye up seh... then in the end we went to watch Via 5 at the esplanade library (fifi, fana, bulat and i) it was great as is almost every performance. Interesting... met a lot of people... yeah well at least me being in titisan has broaden my netwrk.. but i wanna do sumthing more... ah ye... want to do sumthing more but dun want to make the first move bak kata lagu gwen stefani... What u waiting for? Maybe belum time... maybe aku takut... haiz.. scared scared won't go far far you know... DUH! but anyway, still love theatre... and our upcoming performance is hopefully to be a hit... It's a collabo so it's gonna be fun... cerita merepek... actors merepek... so fun ah... haha... insyaallah! Oh yah!!!
Pentas Wayang!
Friday, 29th April 2005
Audi 1, Temasek Poly
Tickets found at One Stop Service (from wED) or call me or Fana
My HP 92389231

Best kan!! haha... it's my last gig as a TP student so be there or be square... What a lame quote.. heck i used it anyway! haha...
Anyway, my dad's resting at home... waiting for his surgery day on thurs after which he will be resting in ICU for approximately 2 days so pray together... Bismillah! oklah... Pentas on the way!!!

2005-04-06T09:43:00.000+08:00

ME:
As some of you might have heard, my dad's in hospital... And truly on that day i was wondering what if it was the last time i ever salam my dad... what if it was the last time that i made fun of him... If it was the last time I did wrong to him... on the journey to the hospital... jus felt like breaking down... although my dad hasnt had his shining moments these past few years... but somethings like this jus make you realise how you need a complete family. My mum's handling insurance and shit and she breaks under pressure and I'm here to support best i can. But i feel like i haven't helped enough. My dad keeps saying if it's time for him to go, he goes ah... but shit ah... I'm jus so sad cos my bro's starting poly and younger bro's in sec 3 and here i am... worried abt my results and Afraid that i might repeat one stupid subject instead of entering the workforce and helping my mum... Whatever ah... jus feel so useless... Waiting for my dad to get better... waiting for his bypass... waiting for my results... jus waiting................

2005-03-19T02:04:00.000+08:00

me now
Currently, typing some stuff on the blog that u have been neglecting for so long. Blame the projects and the workload... hehe... Niwae, missing my boyfren who currently is serving the nation now... Halo baby... well good for him... tryin to earn as much money as possible to have great fun in KL and hoping my results turn out considerably ok. haha... pass lah! insyaallah!!

what i did the last week? I went off on a trip to KL with my family where we stayed at my relative's place... discovered that they haf a lot of nasi goreng and mees... haha... but it was fun... went to sunway lagoon... went on this crazy roller coaster at times square... madness... thanks to imran... haiya... but it was great to catch up with the family like we did... it was so fun! hahah... thanks mama and papa... love you lots...

what am i gonna do next? plan for pentas (which isn't moving, i'm so screwed!) I'm really glad the seniors would help... i would be stepping down soon... then dapat aper fana? certificate eh? haha... anyway, titisan has been an amazing experience... here i go reminising again... what to do... I will miss my buddies a lot... gonna spend time with them!! everyday!!! haha... ok lah... not interesting ah dis entry... jus thought i'd write sumthing... (oh yah... readin the da vinci code... I know lah a bit slow... but nonetheless... amazing so far....) hehe... nite nite!

2005-02-25T00:38:00.000+08:00

Choices
The things you do now will affect what happens or what you do in the future... So if you don't stop now, your future might be pre determined by what you did a few hours ago. Wondering why i'm typing this out... personally i dunno... I guess i've always had this feeling where every little thing that you do has sumthing that can be related or sometimes out of this world relation. I dunno u make a choice and you do it... the consequences is in your hands... there's no one else to blame except u, urself... therefore, think before u do anything... even if it means mindless things like sleeping on ur rite or turning on the comp at a certain time... Not to say big things....that's all I haf to say...

2005-02-14T13:40:00.000+08:00

God, I feel like hell tonight The tears of rage I cannot fightI'd be the last to help you understand Are you strong enough to be my man..Well, nothing's true, and nothing's rightSo let me be alone tonight'Cause you can't change the way I amAre you strong enough to be my man..Lie to me, I promise I'll believe Lie to me, but please don't leaveI have a face I cannot showI make the rules up as I goJust try and love me if you can Are you strong enough to be my man..Are you strong enough to be my man..Are you strong enough to be my man..Are you strong enough to be my man..When I've shown you That I just don't care When I'm throwing punches in the air When I'm broken down and I can't stand Would you be man enough to be my man..Lie to me, I promise I'll believe Lie to me, but please don't leave

2005-02-04T02:51:00.000+08:00

Times
my baby brother, Imran just turned 15. My brother, Irfan's girlfriend. And i'm freaking 20. I'm probably the only person in this entire world who feels funny. I mean i was 15 once and now my baby bro is 15, it feels weird like his not ready to grow up and stuff. As weird as this sounds, i still hug that gemuk boy and say that he is cute (this is partly due to my mum's cuckoo ways). And that ah beng boy... he has changed so much. I prefer to talk to him as an adult cos he is so close to my age. But it's kinda funny that he has a gf ah. then i think back, he is only a yr younger than me so what do i expect? merepek ah, Sheereen ni. Love my bros... can't they jus stay like those cute little pics we had... Mr Marshmallow (Irfan) and Mr Big Nose/Drooly/cutey pie (Imran). Who thinks I'm a nut, just raise your hand. But rite now i'm happy calling them kudut (fan) and gendut (man) haha... they jus hate me when i call them that. But gemuk got no choice ah becos he IS gemuk! haha... Last time during holidays, our parents dun let us play downstairs, so we end up talking and talking and then laughing and laughing like for hours lah... mcm org giler but it was freaking fun. Talk about a lot of stupid things ah. how they used to give me a nickname LongBean cos i was taller than them (which is a sad myth now) then irfan was known as Taugeh cos he doesn't like taugeh and he is thin like taugeh and imran is and always will be tomato for obvious reasons... haha... so rite here rite now this blog entry is dedicated to my gemuk and kudut!!!

2005-02-03T01:09:00.000+08:00

life
I haf about 4 more weeks till i graduate... wothout realising it, i haven't been doing a lot of things i love to do. I haven't been spending as much time as i would like with my slack club members or rather try not. I haven't been spending time with my darling boyfren who as much as it frustrates and saddens me is goin into NS on my last day of school. I haven't been doing much good work even though all my time is devoted to work and sch. I haven't been much good of a drama president cos i haven't been doing anything. It saddens me so... This month is the toughest month. I even forgot that my monthsary was 2 days ago cos farhan currently doesn't haf a phone and i can't contact him and whenever he calls i get so happy tat he calls and i forget to wish him like i always do. so what is happening to me? it's only a month. I hope my frens won't judge me... i love you all jus that circumstance makes me kinda fuzzy and confused. miss you all a lot. so till we meet which is probably end of this dreadful sem... I'll see ya!